#18923
Tips: No, this is my first time....
I just read all of the posts... Found out the dangers... Got encouraged by others results.
Went to the pro- ana websites.. so I knew what not to become. See I'm overweight. I have lots of fat in my mid-section for my body to feed on... I would like to be 160. Not 120. I want to get a good start because I already came to the point where I excepted that I cannot eat junk and sit around doing nothing... I'm not that girl. I'm not Julia Roberts with a personal trainer and a 10 million dollar contract forcing her to lose all of her baby weight in two days. Thats not me. I'm not going to end up annorexic because thats not the woman I want to be. I want to be happy and I just needed a little drastic change to figure myself out and trust me...what I'm doing now is taking everything I have. I have a spouse and 2 kids that need to be fed. I'm constantly preparing meals and snacks and last night I made the best Meatloaf I have ever made in my life and I took my time and cut up those bell peppers and...
made those homemade mash potatoes and thought....
" you cant have any because you abused this food"
" you cant have any of this because you had to much and now I'm going to let you go without so you can appreciate it again"
When I think that I cant go anymore I tell myself that Its like being on a desert island without food. I'm waiting to be rescued...and the thing thats going to do that is weight loss and a new begining!
Just my thoughts...