Toy store dolls/crimes and games 
janaki
20 y
891
Hey everybody,
This is a rather unusual dream for me...3 nights ago. Curious to know if you have any thoughts. It doesn't seem obvious to me...
I went to an old fashioned style toy store (we have one in Toronto - featured in "Good Will Hunting") with a young girl who may or may not have been my daughter. I bought her a barbie doll complete with dress, but we did not take the doll away with us. Instead it was stored for us in some sort of container or desk that I had access to in the store. I came back on another occasion with friends of mine, all woman, to show them the store. Some of these women were my yoga students, others not. I went back to the storage desk and found that there were at least 5 or 6 barbie dolls there, when there should have been only the one I bought previously. The extra ones had been 'taken' by my girl/daughter who badly wanted them. I apologized to the storekeeper and reminded him that I had only bought one doll. I couldn't find a spare place on the counter to place the dolls down (to return them) because at each squared section of the counter a woman that had come with me to the store was now playing a board game at the counter. My women friends were all very excited by the games offered and had travelled to the store with me at great difficulty/cost to see and play these games. The games seemed to have true life/spiritual themes...I can't remember specifics. I also came to learn that someone had used the various 'aliases' of the dolls stored in my desk/container in order to committ various crimes. The shop keeper was a very kindly old man. I don't know if he knew about the crimes, but I wanted very badly to clear everything up with him.
An odd dream. I have dreamt of both dolls and shopping, and together too before. But here I wasn't buying or searching, only trying to return something not mine and a bit anxious about clearing up with respect to the crimes.
Any thoughts!
xo
Janaki
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- Re: Toy store dolls/crimes and games Tracey
20 y
996
This is a reply to # 506,430Hi Janaki!
When I read the first part about 'storing your (INNER!) Barbie' away in a cupboard (eeek!) I immediately thought - now THIS is significant! Little did I know the rest of your dream really did focus around these, now plural!, Barbie's kept in the closet...!
How does that feel to you? Barbie's pretty sexy don't ya think? Do you think she would represent something like that to you? A sexual/attractive Ideal perhaps? (you're blonde, too, aren't you?) - and yet here she is locked away in the cupboard - you're not allowed to take her with you - take her INTO you? Then, she multiplies! This has got to be referring to hiding sexual feelings - the feelings are growing - or something like that, ya' think?
This Inner child of yours had willfully (Aries/Mars stuff- hmm - your Chiron - wound that needs to heal - is in Aries - opposite all your Libra planets - so it IS significant - AND Chiron is being activated right now as Jupiter conjoins your Uranus and at the same time opposes your Aries! - didn't see that before - ah - so astrologically it looks like something has happened, or is going to happen that is a bit of a revelation and has to do with personal freedom and healing your wound - through growth and expansion)
Anyway! (sidetrack!) This Inner Child of yours had willfully (this has got to do with your Chiron in Aries being activated so this dream is probably pretty important) taken more of these Barbies (multiplied/growth/jupiter!!) because she WANTED them - SHE wanted them (an aspect of yourself) - as children do...and this had caused some criminal activity (feelings of guilt or not being perfect, correct etc...)
Hmmm...
Interestingly this dream reeeally does seem to mimic the major transit you're experiencing right now - and, to top it off, the Aries/Libra axis lies in the Body & Values/Sex & Transformation house axis. The integration that needs to occur between the Aries/Libra axis is who you are - your SELF and who you are within a Relationship.
You are playing the Game of Life, Janaki - and it's all good, all the experiences - and, possibly, being really truly involved in the game of Life is a little obstacle to returning these dolls - hmmmm....(I feel the dolls must represent your Sexual/2nd Chakra self - interestingly your Aries Chiron wound is in the 2nd Chakra house - house 2!) - Once discovered, perhaps the dolls can't be returned...!?
okay - maybe I rambled and got off-track...
love to you Janaki,
Tracey
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- Sexy...tee hee!! janaki
20 y
849
This is a reply to # 506,432Tracey,
Now I see the dream fits perfectly! Is Barbie sexy....and how! I was just playing with my friends daughter and her Barbies the other day. Yes, I'm blonde! And this has been a big issue in my life. I've spent most of my life dressing as mannishly as possible because I'm blonde....and a little shapely ;), and never wanted anyone to think I was a dumb blonde! I'm serious, I've worn overalls most of my life!
It does seem to fit on many levels. I used to make art. I stopped and have juuuuuuuuust recently started again. Most of my old work I've gotten rid of, my husband considers it too sexy!! The work I'm starting to make now I plan to make into a book and I had thought of publishing under a pseudonym because I don't want to censor myself anything, and it's quite autobiographical. It basically needs to be very honest to be effective, and I intend to do this.
I had thought that the girl was possibly my inner child. Yes, SHE wants a lot these days. And I do have a lot of feelings of guilt. It seems fitting that my "wound" is in the 2nd chakra. When I had the 2nd Chakra opening this summer (as I described to you) perhaps these guilt feelings came into play because it was wonderful, but afterwards felt very painful for me. I suppose I'm doing the same thing now, sort of hesitantly reaching out for things and then feeling guilty about it. And it does seem BOTH tied up with my concept of SELF and who I am, and also who I am within my marriage.
Interestingly, Janaki is my spiritual name that I was given and I LOVE it. It means/connotes "devoted wife". I was just discussing it with a friend yesterday and told her that I couldn't expect that this name would be suitable to my purpose throughout my life, and that I might not necessarily always be that "devoted wife" character!
Things do seem to be transforming. Yes, personal freedom. Hopefully a revelation will happen, because I'm not quite there yet!
If you were to take a WIIIIIILD guess, would you say that my transformation will take place more within the realm of my personal relationships, or whether it will take place more within my art? Or both? Both are 2nd chakra realms. I'm afraid of pushing the one when I should be focusing on the other. Maybe I just need to knuckle down and make art and see if that takes care of all my wants?
Oh Tracey! How crazy is it that a little Barbie doll dream can cut to the issue so perfectly?
Much love to you,
Janaki- Re: Sexy...tee hee!! Tracey
20 y
1,023
This is a reply to # 506,443Janaki!
The first time I read your response I just marvelled and how perfect it all fit together!! It's wild eh?
The sexy art - is perfect - ooh it all makes so much sense...
So..you ask 'where do you think my transformation will take place?' and I just looked and your chart and the process was very interesting...
I looked to your Sun/Pluto conjunction in Virgo (this lifetime is alllll about Transformation for you - possibly learning to take your Ideas and make them Real - and to do this powerfully...) Well, next I looked at the house - the 8th (sex, death, transformation, psyche) - just more arrows for you re: tranformation! and there's that Sexy barbie! Next: See where the ruler of Virgo is.....Mercury rules Virgo and Mercury rules Gemini - and Gemini rules your 5th house of ART and CREATIVITY! So - your tranformation has to do with being able to express yourself to the fullest and communicate this to others! (sexy 8th house stuff too!!) You have to 'make' something (virgo) that says something (gemini) and says what is in the deepest darkest recesses of your Self (Pluto beside your Sun and both in the 8th house!) Soooo....cool...Just so happen that the 5th house besides ruling Creativity and Art rules Love Affairs (these are short-lived fun pleasureable things...for you you'd be attracted to the Mercurial type - who's intellectual, idea-oriented, charming, communicative)...all fits so well with your dream!
Yeah - I'd say get making that Art Janaki....it's what you must do....
love Tracey
xoxo- Wow Tracey!!! janaki
20 y
801
This is a reply to # 506,476You're the best!
I've been coming to the same conclusion myself...art! And re: all the stuff that's been coming up for me. I've been confused about whether it's just coming out of me or whether it's connected to another....it's just me I think!
It all comes together because artistically I'm planning something BIG which is a little, let's say "Barbie-ish", if you know what I mean. It's very personal and quite revealing and I think it will force some issues with hubby such as my need to be able to express myself truthfully without censure. I've had to censor myself since my marriage in many ways, mostly due to cultural difference and expectations, and I think the time is ripe to push this issue.
Thanks so much Tracey for checking my chart. It's very "reinforcing" and helpful.
Much love and light to you,
Janaki
xo
- Wow Tracey!!! janaki
20 y
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- Re: Sexy...tee hee!! Tracey
20 y
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- Sexy...tee hee!! janaki
20 y
849
- Re: Toy store dolls/crimes and games Tracey
20 y
996
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