Yes, I have a ten year old visiting me..
Oh yes I do understand A and I remember we did connect before on the use of this magical plant. Without even mentioning it by name!
A you put it so well into words, the way it is so like you're living a whole lifetime in that few minutes. For me too, each time was only about five minutes. I also used the 15x potency and whoa the first time, although I had read about it and talked to a few people, I was not expecting it to immediately take effect. I thought I would at least have some time, I would feel it coming on, would get comfortable, but before my second exhale, I was already somewhere else, but unfortunately, sitting upright at a table. ( I lay down the next few times I tried it.)
I was totally confused! Because of the extreme sudden total change of reality. I was on the floor of this very bright room, a black and white checkered floor. There was something strange beside me, a glass display case of some kind?
A group of women in what looked like long robes and Dutch hats/nun hats/nurse hats were whispering about something, whispering about me? They saw me moving a little, seemed a little concerned that I was going to get up and look in the glass case, but they were totally benevolent and they KNEW me very well. They could see I wasn't able to move, so they continued their conversation.
I now knew why I couldn't move... I was half way through the floor into this other world, only from the chest up, while the rest of me was still on the "other side"! I was stuck in the floor, either I had become part of the floor from my chest down, or else I just hadn't made it all the way into this other reality.
The only thing that was scary was that I had NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOING ON! Because like I said it happens immediately. I can't stress that enough! WOW!
I didn't know what to do, I wanted to be on one side or the other, but not in between, so I started to try to push back through the floor! And then wham, as if suddenly gravity was turned at right angles, I was constantly being pushed over at right angles, as if gravity was pushing me, an incredibly intense force and I was trying to stay upright, but couldn't. Then the floor was like a wall, not knowing which way to go I was ridiculously pushing my face into this solid substance trying in vain to go back through it! Totally wild! Have you ever tried to push your whole body through solid matter? I was sure I could get back through.....
Minutes later, I am back in "consensus reality" sitting there at the table, laughing my heart out, I could not stop, it was if I had just been shown the funniest thing in the world, as if everything was so ludicrously hilarious, all existence and I laughed and laughed and laughed!
I had the sense afterwards that all physical reality was made of little folds, like an accordion! Or like it's folded in on itself, but it could also be unfolded to reveal these other worlds, hidden but right here with us, all around us. As if I could slip through one of those unseen folds, into this new dimension.
My second journey was as odd, there was some outside noise that seemed to hold me here in this world, i was very briefly at the end of a garden, in a flowerbed hiding? Or else, I was actually a plant in the flowerbed. I could hear my Mother, and my sisters and something was going through my mind, like a rhyming group of words, as if it was something clever I had just learned, but SO familiar, a memory untouched for years, but then there was this noise in this world and I was being pulled out... but then, oh I can't describe any of this very well, my words are so LIMITING, but I was caught again coming back through and in my mind it was as if I was slipping through layers of reality matrix, folded angles of existence, but it was skipping like a record skips, so I kept repeating coming through coming through coming through, for a very long time, (only seconds probably, in "reality") I started to laugh again, it is SO FUNNY. Ay first I remember my neighbour's names, as I'm coming back to this world, but I am quite sure that my neighbours, everything, this whole life is actually all a dream and the other life is the real one, so I am in limbo, laughing at the silliness of everything and then i know that THIS is "real" and I am back.
Each time was about 5 minutes for me and that's it.
The few other times that I used this special plant ally, I would fluidly slip through, back to the garden, bottom of the garden, sort of hidden away and it's wild, just like you said A, in those moments I am living an entire other full complete life and go back to the same place and continue as if I never left!!!!
Except for that first time, I don't know where I was there at all.
It's like childhood memories, but I also experience the other people being messengers from somewhere else.
Funny it's as if the plant itself has a consciousness, even a willof it's own, it chooses you, i haven't done it since,not because I am afraid at all, but the plant seemed to show itself to me, its true private self. not everyone can take the journey, some people never travel anywhere, some people can talk to the plant itself . I think it lets you in, or it doesn't.
I grew some cuttings for a while, but when i stopped using it, the plants died and I was so sad i couldn't save them but I swear they knew they weren't needed and I also thought that i wasn't ready to be their "keeper", so they chose to go away.
They have square stems! Hollow in the middle, a circle in a square! No plant like it!
hehe, long post...
It's great to share this with you A,
love Alison