Hello Andreas!
Im a little confused what my current situation in life is. After leaving highschool, i left behind good friends, that I dont speak to at all (fear? of what?! Not even I know!!!). I find it hard to talk to people. I lack communication with lots of people in my life, and I dont know why. At times I find it hard to tell the same people that I care for, that I love them. Its a power inside of me that holds me back. I can do it at times to my dear mother, but its rare. I feel awkard even hugging people. I dont understand. I have always noticed this about myself, but it is something that I find hard to change. Am I just a person that is cold? I know how much I yearn for love. I've only been in one relationship in my life, and it ended very painfully. I've recently finished my first year of college, and am searching for my calling for a career. So far, I can only see myself in a holistic profession since it has given me so much. (Acne had taken over my life, and had left me devastated. I bowel cleansed, and liver flushed. Great results.) But it seems I dont make the moves in order to progress in life. I also have a weekend job that pays me about 40 dollars a week. I am hesitant to go find a BETTER paying job. My father is aggrivated by the fact that im so "lazy". Theres alot of things I would like to change, but I dont. Im frozen. I am a 19 year old guy, in great shape, and enjoy working out. I am more physically healthy than I have ever been. I want to tell or even show how much I love the people I care for. I take care of my body so much, and tell myself I love myself, since i have noticed you can only love others if you truly love yourself. I have tried to look within myself, for the answers; but i truly am lost. Why am I so lonely? and why am I so hesitatnt to change my life. I understand the law of vibration. Or perhaps I already am changing it, by noticing my flaws? Actions speak louder than words I guess. Much respect.