Have you considered looking into a relationship with the Creator?
Have you looked into Dr. Clarks seizure protocols as well.
As with any protocol God allows it to work.
You have a creator and you are loved, just as you love your son and worry about him, but much deeper than that.

Sometimes we can be fully alive, yet dead spiritually which means nothing more than a zombie state. If we are not fullly grounded and connected to the source of all power and strength, love and peace, then we are bound to the worry and grief in this life.

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I can relate to you so much and I am also so impressed about how you master your situation and how tough this must be for you. Actually I can only relate to the fact that you say you cant find the answers because I also feel like that often. Whatever helped me or helps me when this feeling comes up is limited and only small steps. I read Andreas Moritz s book and realised that God (or whatever you want to call it) puts things on our plate for a reason. Your son might have this to trigger your spiritual journey so that you can find your way home (this is only an example- there might be different reasons). Read the book maybe it will help you see things in a different light.

Also, I have spent a lot of time doing Yoga as this has helped me to endure situations that I thought I couldnt otherwise plus you get to take some time for yourself which you probably need. And where would I be without meditation? Sitting in silence and not trying to find an answer but just feel the breath and the space around you.

Maybe you have tried all this but I cant stop emphasising how much i believe these are important things. I am sure one day you will see the reasons. As for the physical rreasons of your sons conditions I am afraid I cant help you but maybe the Ask Andreas Forum can help you. Good luck!

i know... you've heard it before... but think about it... what is it exactly that is bringing you pain...??? your sons seizures do not bring you pain... they will if you allow them to... so the emotions you feel are the cause of your pain... yet we allow our emotions to be attached to others... we feel their pain so to speak... but what would happen if you detached your emotions... would you love your son any less...??? no... you would love him just as much as ever...

there are many other facets that you need to learn about yourself... so much that you don't understand because you have been so distracted... so preoccupied with trying to fix your son... that you really have been in such turmoil that you've neglected yourself... others here have suggested yoga... and meditation... seeking to silence the mind... and this is very good advice... did you know that when you can make your mind be still you have no problems... the thoughts we entertain are the creations of our problems... our mind is a master problem solver yes... but on the flip side of the coin who created the problems to begin with...??? peace is something only you can find for yourself... no one else can do it for you... we can attempt to tell you how but you have to do the foot work yourself...

i'm going to tell you another earth shattering fact about yourself that you probably haven't discovered... your problems stem with all your "wants" and "desires"... and since things are not as you would have them be... you cannot accept them as they are... you can't have your way so you get angry... your son has seizures and you find it totally unacceptable and blame God... in effect you have placed yourself above God when you criticise Gods handiwork... and you cannot and will not surrender your will to that of a higher... and far more intelligent power than yourself...

suppose this is all simply a test "for you"... suppose your son is "God" himself... suppose that what we consider horrible isn't so horrible after all... suppose your son is the way he is because you are the way you are... have you ever thought of life as being somewhat like virtual reality... and perhaps some of these situations are put on us as lessons we must learn...

have you ever wondered what it might be like to be dead... westeners have a horror of death while other societies don't mind dieing at all... the japaneses would rather take their own lives themselves than live a life of dishonor or shame... i'm just saying all this to try to point out to you that the way we've been conditioned to think and believe is a lot that is wrong with our society... you and i as individuals make up this society... and if we wish to change the world we have to start with ourselves... 'to thine self be true'... and "greater is he that conquers himself than he that conquers the world...

my oldest son had seizures... as a result of a gunshot wound to his head... he was in miami and got into a fight with wrong crowd and got shot... when i got the phone call they said he was in intensive care and not expected to live... and i said a very simple prayer... i asked God to allow him to live... but if it was His will to take him make me strong enough to accept it... my prayer was answered and my son lived for another ten years after that... but he did have seizures all during that time... he seemed unable to give up the life style he lived before he was shot... and continued to drink... and every time he would drink a seizure was sure to follow... and a seizure is definitely not pleasant to witness... he finally got killed in an auto accident... when his drunk friend and co worker ran off the road and hit a tree... now i'm going to tell you something that might shock you... but when my daughter and son-in-law came to my house at 3:30am with the news of his death... i heard a big sigh of relief leave my body... i had always known he was going to die... it was just something i knew... but i always expected he would die during a seizure... i had so many horrible projections of how it might happen... that when it finally happened i guess i couldn't help but feel relieved... but it's true... and it could have been so much worse... i'm sure my son wouldn't have been able to live with himself had the shoe been on the other foot... and had he been responsible for his friend death... so... see... no matter how bad things may seem... they could always be worse...

it's been a long time since i've told this to anyone... guess it helped me just to get it out... and hope that perhaps it might've helped you... there's so much more i'd like to share... but i've already written a book... but the bottom line is you need to learn how to surrender... to give up... to quit... no more fighting... quit trying to control... just be there to love your son... and be of whatever help you possibly can... but more importantly you need to learn to love yourself... to forgive yourself... what ever has happened is beyond your control to change... and when you finally find yourself able to accept everything as it is... and are at peace with yourself... then a miracle cure will pop up... lol... that's just the way things works out most times...

thanks for allowing me to ramble...
just like to close this volume by saying...
"it's a wonderful day in the neighborhood boys and girls"...
lol...
;-)

If I may agree with the above post.

"what is it exactly that is bringing you pain...??? your sons seizures do not bring you pain... they will if you allow them to... so the emotions you feel are the cause of your pain... yet we allow our emotions to be attached to others... we feel their pain so to speak... but what would happen if you detached your emotions... would you love your son any less...??? no... you would love him just as much as ever..."

OUr society expects us to be glued to our children like paper. If we are not we are not good parents. THe media feeds all of these inuendos to us daily. It is time to ignore the masses and do what we need to do for ourselves in tough situations... which you are in.

We do allow our emotions to be attached to our kids. Then we feel everything that happens with them and drag ourselves along as good parents. Let go. It is the only way to survive because you are killing yourself. You must learn to love your self enough to be selfish enough to let go.

I know. I have a kiddo in prison. I too had to learn to let go. It was the hardest thing on earth to do but we all have our paths that we ourselves have chosen. You may say your son did not choose his. ON some level he did. My spirituality has increased immensely with my situation and in spite of all the hell I am better off now then before but it was no picnic.

Good luck and keep reading and go within because that is where the kingdon of heaven is found. Books can often sort out some of your confusion. Try Conversations with God. Try Love Without End. and never give up. Your angels are with you daily. YOu are never alone.

Have you ever meditated- in the eastern sense of the word?

Sitting down- or in a chair hands on knees and eyes closed, focused slightly upwards -at the space inbetween the eyebrows?

It will be difficult at first- do you have a place where spiritual meditations take place? Maybe you could join in- BTW It took me 14 years....so I just wanted you to know if you are very resistant (like me) then it may take some time- but you are all you really have in this world...might as well start on the project of you? right?

Sometimes candles and incense with beautiful music helps...to settle and comfort one- as they go inside for answers.