im soo discouraged. well i guess nervous really. I was all set to start, but i dont think my mind was. It was the first day of my new job (well trained all last week) so i was super stressed about going and meeting everyone and I was good until late afternoon and had lunch!! AHHH I think that I need to get settled there and have my mind in the right mind frame. i really really really really want to do this, any suggestions or encouragement you can give me??? thanks for checking in :-)

Okay, here's my exerience...maybe it will help. A few weeks ago I did a 10 day fast. When I started, I was determined, feeling fat, and just ready. I didn't "overthink" it. When my friends were amazed that I could do this, I was too. This was the second fast I'd done and succeeded at, only short-term. But right after the 10 day, I took a few days off, and decided I'd start another one, back to back. And did yesterday, no problem, no food, just lemonade, but by today, You'd have thought I was the human garbage disposal. I ate a huge dinner with dessert. The difference between the first two fasts and this one, is that I realized on the first two fasts, I gave myself a few days for "just me". I didn't make plans with friends, didn't make plans to clean, work, etc. I just allowed myself to relax and get through those moments that drive you nuts where you have to eat. Today I failed because being it was day two and I ran around like crazy, starting home improvement projects, and cleaning etc. that I didn't take the time to go into the zone. By day four, you are kinda more into it and don't need to self-pamper, but the first two days you need to give yourself permission to do nothing but take care of yourself. Take baths when you want to eat, or paint, or read, or watch TV. If you keep finding you fail, try my plan, and maybe the next time you will get to the ten day mark with ease. This is why everyone on the boards tells you to wait until you have a weekend to relax. It really makes a huge difference. Even if you have to start when you are working, be sure when you come home, you haven't piled a bunch of added chores to your day. Make this fast about cleaning out the buzz in your head and in your time too. Do nothing for anyone else until you have complete control of this fast (except for children of course). Good luck. Sorry for the long note.