i am so sorry for whoever is reading this. i just need to type and get everything out. writing is wonderful therapy. i write every day in my journal just to get my thoughts out so they don't stay bottled up inside of me. do you ever feel frantic and just have to write so you can get it all out so you don't have to be all hyper and frantic and feel boxed in? i'm feeling tense, like i gotta get out there and run around or do something really crazy so i can feel alive and just be care free, ya know? maybe i should go running, except for the fact that it's like nearly midnight and i have to get to sleep so i can wake up early tommorrow to meet someone for breakfast. gotta do something. so i'm typing as fast as i can. blahblahblah. in an odd way, it's kinda fun and satisfying. i don't wanna eat. i don't wanna sleep. i just wanna get out there and do something that'll make me feel alive. is this really bad? should i just go to bed? should i work out? should i just keep writing? ok, breathe, breathe, relax... ok, so that's me right now. tense, frantic, nervous, exhausted but full of energy somehow. i could go on and on and just write about my whole life, but i won't put you through that. i'll just write in my journal or something. i just needed someone to type at. thank you so much for bearing with me so far. lol. maybe i'll go make some tea. will that help? ok, enough venting. i'm gonna go write and drink some milk or tea or something. don't reply if you don't want to, unless you have some really helpful advice. thanks again for bearing with me. :)