What they meant when they said unique,
was that I could not normally ever drink.

They said that if I was such a doubter
I should go out again and test the water.


That I did and soon was wet as ever.
I still could not find the shut off lever.

I became a 90 day wonder more than one time.
It's a miracle I was not convicted of a crime.

On and on the merry go round went.
I used my last ticket, my money was spent.

I crawled up the hill next to my house.
On my hands and knees I was meek as a mouse.

I got to the door and used my key in the lock.
Broke it right off, and yes I said fock.

Miracle of all the key DID work.
I escaped to my bathroom, feeling like a jerk.

I went back to my meeting next morning bright and early.
To report on my escapade, I was quite squirrely.

They kept telling me don't drink, get to the meeting.
The words did not sink in, in fact they were quite fleeting.

I just could not grasp the words they said.
They went in one ear and out of my head.

Finally what they told me I started to hear.
They said, "you never have to drink another beer."

I would see on the wall THINK THINK THINK.
Translated it in my head to DRINK DRINK DRINK.

I got another 90 days together.
No thanks to the winter, it was very cold weather.

I had to walk or take the bus.
I was getting to the point where it was a fuss.

I knew I had to get there no matter what ever.
And then I found my own private driver !!

A lady that drove cab offered to take me there.
Day, night, when ever...... she did not even care !!

No charge she said, this ones on me.
No I had NO excuse not to go, you see ?

I managed to stay sober for quite a few days.
I was far from being where I am today.

It was a start and I chalked it all up.
On the calendar I made out of a notebook.

HA !! Ninety days !! I am getting there now !!
I should go out and celebrate, my "self talk" said HOW?

Well, of course to the bar, is'nt that right?
And before I knew it, I was once again tight.

This went on for way too long.
I could not hear the words to the Sober Song.

I got sober enough to do a geographic.
Make a plane reservation, what a fanatic.

Gave away what I could not pack.
Took only what I could carry, on my own back.

I got all settled in and went to a meeting.
I thought I would lie but could not stand cheating.

There I was surrounded my friends again.
I was no where near ready to start making my amends.

Back on step one, I had three days.
And to think, I really thought that I had come a ways.

Shut up and listen ?
What am I missin ?

Every day and night I found a meeting to attend.
Next I had to get my ears straight so they would not bend.

I could twist the words they said into some thing else.
I said to my sponsor, I gotta get ahold of myself.

She laughed and said good luck.
As they passed the basket I threw in a buck.

I kept going and got a phone list and started to make calls.
I found out that females can even have balls.

Much to my amazement I started to understand.
Bob was right when he said, "Ain't life grand!"

Days turned to weeks and months.
I said to myself, this is a pretty nice bunch.

I rented a room in a sober house of people.
Got a Jeep and dog, lived down the road
from the church with the steeple.

The church was the Sunday meeting place.
I made sure I was there to show my face.

All this happened many years ago.
The dogs muzzle started looking like snow.

She is no longer with me, now......
just in spirit, you know.

The Jeep went to the scrap yard and I almost cried.
Suzi the Jeep, and my dog named Taffy ......both gone and buried.

I am happy to say I don't have to drink beers.
I have not had to in over twelve years.

With the words of wisdom that I found in the rooms,
The help of many sponsors and the things I burned through,

It is fine with me if it's Just For Today.
Today is all any of us have any way.

But for the grace of god there go I.
Gets easier to live as time passes by.

AA is not for all.
I am glad I gave it an honest shot !!!


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