So it has been about 6 to 7 months since I first started showing symptoms and of course I started with parasitic, well because I had them in my stool, then I went to fungal, to Candida and Morgellons was always there but I didn’t want to dive to deep for that might have given me an answer that I didn’t want. So time went on and some therapies have made improvements. I’m using the restroom without enemas, I can actually function some days with little to no symptoms but then other days a terrible. I’m now having neurological issues such as narcoleptic type of episodes and horrible sleep paralysis and the pressure in my head is a bit much at times. I do have Candida as well and I’ve been expelling ropeworms. Anyways I bought a microscope awhile back because I was sick of wondering and for he past few weeks I’ve seen a few black fibers ( of course I tried to convince myself that they were a parasite of some sort) but tonight I saw a blue one which has officially sealed the deal and I knew deep down that it was a very real probability but when that probability becomes a reality it still hits pretty hard. I’m beside myself at the moment in tears, thinking of what my future looks like and what it doesn’t look like (I’m only 31). I’m pretty devastated at the moment and what’s even more concerning is I know my best friend died from this (of course she was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic) and now another one of my best friends has lost her mind and honestly I’m thiinikng that there is foul play afoot and I know who but I won’t get into that. There are theories of this being used as a biological weapon or am I wrong? Ugh I don’t know what to do or where to go or how I’m ever going to support myself again or tell my family, they know about the parasites and the Candida but this is going to be a hard one to sell. Im just so lost