For anyone who is emerging from an abusive relationship, "acceptance" is one of the most challenging aspects of our recovery.
"...She isnt aware of what she does and say, and will never change..." The role of "acceptance" in this instance is that she absolutely does know that what she is doing is 100% disrespectful, rude, and very hurtful and she simply doesn't care.
Now.....having typed that, it's not an easy fact to accept and "acceptance" does not, in any way, obligate us to "like" whatever the facts are. The facts are benign - they don't have an agenda. They are what they are. And, "accepting" the facts as they are is a truly liberating endeavor because it removes the burden of "fixing" or "changing" someone else's behaviors as if those behaviors somehow belong to us, and not the person doing whatever it is that they're doing.
"Acceptance" is when I finally reached the point where I realized that I didn't have the power or control to bargain for, wish for, demand, force, or hope for more pleasant or comfortable facts. Once I got to that point, I was able to let go, walk away, and focus on fixing myself instead of other people.
I wish you the very, very best in this endeavor. It's not easy to have a child like this, and I know this from personal experience.
Brightest blessings to you
"How long will it take?" LOLOLOL!!!! I laugh because I asked my therapist this same question, each session. I mean that I was "one of those" clients, and I did everything that she suggested, did the work, I was diligent, and I didn't feel as if I was getting any better, at all.
One day, I was driving to some sort of appointment, and I heard a radio broadcast - Science Friday - and the topic was that physicists had constructed a new atomic clock that was accurate within (I cannot remember) every 150 years.
Neato. But, what caught my attention was that the host said that scientists were unable to explain what time really was. We can measure it's passing, set our baking timers, and calculate how long it will take to get someplace, but there is no understanding or explanation for what time really is. That, for me, generated an epiphany that it didn't matter "how long" it was going to take for me to "get better." Today, I'm better than I was 10 months ago, and that's all that matters.
So, brightest blessings to you. Walking away is hard - painful if grandchildren are involved. But, for people who are that abusive, those children aren't people: they're tools to manipulate.
Again.......brightest blessings and one day at a time!