If I had to be honest, I wouldn't think I will solve this problem. It's just, still there. But at the same time, how much have I really done to solve it. Not enough by miles. I wish it could be gone in a second, since I'm starting dating. But f*** it, I can't let it stop me from experiencing the most amazing things life has to offer.

Let me say that again. I can't let this damn thing stop me from experiencing the most amazing things this life has to offer. Otherwise what's the point of existing. You can't care, otherwise you won't experience anything positive anyway. Or you might say, you'll experience embarrassment which may far outweigh the thrill of life.

f*** that. EC will disappear. It's disappeared for some, why not for you, why not for me.


EC is awkward as heck. And so is this forum. I don't feel like it's designed to find the answers. But I'm just spitting what's on my mind. There is no structure to what I am saying, yes.

Will EC be defeated? I don't really know. Do I want it to be defeated? I think I'm on the verge of not caring...