I feel you whoever you are.
Hugs to you.

It is good that you posted, I completely understand your feelings. you are clearly a bright intelligent person. how long do you have left at medical school? could you talk to someone at your medical school. you could do anything you want in life, you are so young

Medical school has high suicide rates, please seek some counseling from your school

It's private and all they do is talk to you about your problems. From there you can decide whether you want to take medications or not, I chose not too.

It sounds like you have alot of pressure from family and up until now have been able to meet their expectations and succeed at a very high level, but now that you are feeling low and your grades are slipping you fear you won't have their support, or approval, is this true?

One of the things I thought reading your message - is to take a year off from your studies, and either work or travel. Maybe you are just very tired and run down. Being in 3rd year of med school, you've probably been overscheduled and worked and studied at a very high level for a protacted period of time. No human can keep this up without a break.

Its probably the worlds best kept secret, but medical students and medical professionals and nurses are so over sheduled and over worked that they often feel like you do; but because there is such a high expectation for performance, its kept secret.

So anyway, glad you've posted here and hopefully you can make some connections. Maybe too you might be able to take a break after this year is finished?

all the best

Gilaron,

All posters have given you a good advice.

I think you need to look at yourself and put it down on paper about your situation. First ask yourself why are friends leaving you? Be honest to yourself and ask, what do you do wrong? I would change myself to see the change you want to se in others. You cannot run from this trouble, because then you will run wherever you go. Solve it now, I know if you put your mind to it you can do it.

Why do you say that all your friends are hypocrites?

Take things lightly. There are many fishes in the ocean. It is very hard to lose relationships and not feel down about it. But you will make new friends. Also sun always shines tomorrow after a gloomy day. Smile and the world will smile with you. Fake it till you get it.

I would like you to see this video, it will blow your mind.

http://youtu.be/6P2nPI6CTlc

You can post your thoughts here and on the Relationship forum. Soulful Survivor is the best advisor on that forum.

Many hugs to you.

Archus

I understand how you feel. I have experienced a similar depression.

First, do you truly want to be a doctor, or in the medical field? Have you been realizing this is not what you really want to do? Is it what you are expected to do? Do you feel trapped, like you cannot turn back and do something different?

Is it too much stress? Are you getting enough sleep? Some universities make a point of over-working the students, which is counterproductive, in my opinion. Sleep is critical for quality studies. Are you drinking a lot of coffee to keep yourself going? Caffeine can ultimately drain your body and cause depression. Careful with the sugar, also. I speak from experience.

If I had known about nutrition and food sensitivities during college, my Depression problems would have been MUCH easier to deal with. In addition to talking with a counsellor, I recommend getting tons of quality nutrition, daily sunlight, and daily exercise. Consider the possibility you may have developed food intolerances ...these can wreak havoc. Eliminate gluten for two weeks, it could make a HUGE difference in how you deal with stress. If you can, start juicing. Omega juicers are great. 16 ounces of green/ginger juice a day can really lift your spirits and make it easier to deal with what's going on.

This may sound crazy, but perhaps you can take a year off and go WOOFing? You can travel and work on organic farms, and learn about various farming practices, in exchange for work. You might find it refreshing. I wish I had done this.

http://wwoofinternational.org/

Just wondering, perhaps the food in your home country was more nutritious? Is your university in a polluted place? Could there be toxic mold in your housing? All these things can amplify existing problems...or create them.

I'll check back to see if you write here again...I have *been there, done that* with debilitating depression, and I understand how terrible it is.

You are not alone. Cheer up!