I can't find mom's certificate. I feel like it's magic. I need it in my memory. Wonder how else am I going to fast... I am going crazy over this fasting thing, but I am just a weak little girl with her limitations. An unhappy way to live, weak. But I admit it, I am weak. How about this, I am going to fast because my IQ is over 143. High IQ means high achievement potential. Fasting is an achievement too. I have been feeling pretty dumb, but my IQ says otherwise. Venerate my IQ number like religion and look upon it in times of need. Attempt #199 probably. Not exaggerating. Been trying all these years to fast. You would think such a high IQ would succeed more, but maybe it's because I didn't realize that I had a high IQ.

Hi Linda :),

I was wondering what makes you feel you have an eating disorder? ... and also what your reasons are for wanting to fast? Something i believe would help you is to do some dedicated calming exercises. Be still, relax, breathe. Don't be so hard on yourself :), but instead deeply love yourself, acknowledging and affirming all of your good attributes. Any negativity that may be going on, impatience with yourself, stress, worry, fear, etc, you can simply choose to reject it and to walk in peace instead. Anything you are able to accomplish in the area of fasting will come much easier from this place of peace and rest.

Also if you have been finding it difficult to fast over a consecutive string of days, one possible way to build towards this while still experiencing many wonderful benefits of fasting would be something like alternate day fasting, or another form of intermittent fasting. The good news is that there are many options ranging from fasting 16 hours and eating healthy for 8 (or even 14/10... or 19/5) to fasting 36 hours (or 30) and eating 12 (or 18) or whatever variation best fits what your body, mind and soul are in the best place to do.