Hello everyone !
First of all, big thanks to you mattk3 for your advices ! The thing is I don't want to buy other products, I always preferd to live with few, and not overconsume...I use simple remedies, as natural as possible to treat myself, it will always be like this.
Also thank you hsongi90, I totally share your pain, and have some advices to share.
Please, read until the end.
I finally found out what I have, it's called ascites, what happens is that fluids accumulate between your gut and your skin basically, and it comes as a complication of cirrhosis, or a very weak liver. This also explains the total loss of appetite, acide reflux and lethargy, which are other symptoms.
I feel better day after day, yesterday I had more energy thanks to my
Sea Salt water flushes, juices and no fructose/minimal diet (I drank some pineapple juice, sauerkraut juice, and a little bit of garlic juice, along with my dear cayenne pepper tea), and did some exercices, went shopping riding my bicycle with no fatigue and could even dance a bit, once you recover enough energy, some exercices really help with ascites as ayurveda teaches, plus endorphines are welcomed !
Today I started urine therapy again, I originally planned to start a urine fast, but I had to clean my bowels of
parasites first, at least try it and see, but I couldn't see myself doing a
Sea Salt water flush every morning and urine therapy at the same time...So I decided to stop after 4 days and let urine therapy do it's job. Taking the first stream in the morning really do make a huge difference, after that and other glasses I felt even more energy, a positive aura, and for the first time in a loong time, I had appetite !! Thanks to my exercices I could lace my shoes almost comfortably, which I absolutely couldn't a few weeks ago !
But there is something else that I read today on a french website, it explains the relationship between diseases and the emotional part of yourself, how your feelings can affect you to the point where you'll develop a disease. We're what we eat but we're also what we think, and what we feel.
So cirrhosis can be a form of autodestruction, when you're feeling guilty to live (that was me a bit more than a year ago), or the manifestation of the resentment you feel toward your parents, and most commonly your mother !!! That's totally what happened, because my mother didn't trust me when I gave her advices, but instead listened to other ppl who would make her think I was against her, where all I wanted was to help...her anxiety makes her fear everything, and everyone, even her daughter...I already did some practical exercice weeks ago where you draw yourseld and the person you have problems with on a paper, stickman style, then you draw lines corresponding to each chakra linking you together, then you draw a circle of light around yourself, the other person, and then another around both of you, wishing for the best for you two. Finally you cut the paper in the middle of the lines with a pair of scissors, this let your subconsient mind know that attachments aren't there anymore, and instead, only love remains, love being the light surrounding you both. Thanks to this I could let go of some weight and I felt ok to answer to her at the phone again, but during harder times, the resentment would still come back...When you feel weak, you can have weak thoughts. So I called her today and wrote her a letter to let the past behind, express myself...and let go of the resentment as well as the pity, the guilt (I thought it was egoistic to set boundaries and say "no, I can't help you, that's enough now"...but it's healthy !). Everything went fine, she even thank me, and I feel energized tonight ! I could even eat a little bit more than I usually do. My liver will be fine now, with no resentment left and urine therapy...I wonder if you can say that UT is like giving love to yourself ? That's how I feel it anyway...
So now, I need to talk about parasites.
parasites can become a threat when your immune system is down. On the emotional side, their growth is linked to your feeling of being abused, or dirty, because of a situation or someone you found filthy, something you endured and you found disgusting. Something actually happened that made me feel abused, and dirty, and it disgusted me...in the same way that you feel abused by parasites, feel dirty because they live inside you, and it disgusts you !!! We tend to think life is crual, unfair to inflict us such a burden to deal with, but now I think what makes the difference is your attitude. We all live with
parasites of some sorts and I think it's natural, I read somewhere that some of them are in fact useful, they're a threat only when they are given the opportunity to proliferate, and they do because of our weaknesses, and our weaknesses find their roots in our psyche, our emotional...That's also why parasites will find their way back sooner or later and are hard to fight, as long as we feel abused/dirty and do not work to heal the root cause...So I'll heal this emotional wound too, a way or another.
I don't know about you, but I feel at peace with these reasons that I've found, I now finally understand and feel like all the pieces of the puzzle have been gathered, I know I'll be alright...with a clean diet respectful of my body's needs, a healthy lifestyle and above all, healthy thoughts about myself, otherfrom UT, since it's also useful against parasites, but to be honest, I think I just want to thank them now, allow them to stay until I make peace with my emotional self about this issue, because in fact, if my attitude, my guilt and disgust of myself/the situation allowed them to proliferate, then it's my fault, and I also have the power to change this now that I truly understand...we'll see...;)
I wish you all the best, let's learn from our diseases and afflictions, give us some time to feel a bit better day after day and use our bad experiences for the best. Diseases just like parasites aren't there to annoy us, but to give us a message, from which we can learn and grow stronger. Also ask the help from the loving universe, I discovered something new and progressed each time I prayed and asked for light and guidance...and I received it.