tomi444
SWA, I understand what you imply for I too thought that, but when I came to accept the Holy Trinity as my spiritual interaction with Christ and the Holy Spirit I soon began to feel His love.
I cannot explain, God only knows, but I feel my faith and total acceptance of Jesus the Christ helped me to love Him in the way I prayed I could, I saw no other way.
I found that looking too far into beliefs etc. threw me into many a quandary.
People have accused me of working for Satan when I have simply walked through his evil ways and come out the other side with a smile on my face.
One must know thine enemy to defeat them, I have done that to begin my presence with God the Almighty for all eternity.
You are loved my friend for God is Love.