Glaze, your letter is so, so very sad. Not because your girlfriend is possibly a cheating flake, but because your life is such a mess!
Yes, how sad. A seemingly sensitive, caring boy, who I'm sure is loaded with potential, and yet, you are unable to write a letter any better than a 7 year old. No punctuations, capitals, paragraphs....HELP!!!!
Look kid, get your nose into your schoolbooks, work hard at improving your intellect, get a vocation or means to improve your lot in life. When you have matured and bettered yourself, then, and only then, find yourself a good woman who matches all your fine qualities. Meanwhile, keep girls as friends, but guard your emotions carefully.
You really do sound like a great kid. Stop shrotchanging yourself. If you don't, your lack of understanding will propel you into anger and bitterness in a few years. Then we will hear from you that women are all b&#*3$
You deserve better in life, but only you can forge your own destiny.