Hi Again!
I've been thinkin bout your dream...
On one hand, you say you are not to blame.
On the other, you act as though you are by trying to clean up the mess.
But even in your dream you question your actions:
"Why, am I always cleaning others stuff"?
Does the dream contain the answer?
At the school you see three people that you know.
Do you think these people are trying to make you feel guilty?
As a way of controlling you? Have they ever "blamed" you for something you felt was not true? Then do you run and do the opposite of whatever it was they accuse you of?
Like my late husband would call me a money hungry grubbing
b i t c h. I knew he was just trying to get me to open up the purse strings, to "prove" that I wasn't. I think it actually may have worked for awhile, but then I gave up caring.
Or do you need to feel loved and appreciated?
Do you really believe your behavior is going to earn you love?
Or is it just sympathy, that you want?
I'm not trying to be rude. I just think you NEED to sit down and look at some of your beliefs.
I'm trying to give you some questions to ask yourself.
You will probably find others as well.
I wish you the best,
Marj