day 10 - SO ANGRY all the time!! PLE... 
rawrnr
15 y
2,603
I am on day 10 of my juice fast. not sure how long I will go. I have a blog..
I am on hour 11 of a 36 hour dry fast that I will end tomorrow morning.
I am so FULL of rage it is scary!
I am a binge eater. Been high RAW for 3 years, VEGAN for 15
I work out A LOT!
People would never guess I eat and eat and eat until my stomach feels like it's gonna burst and it's hard to breath almost EVERY NIGHT!
I abuse myself with food, then I abuse myself with exercise.
I have read DOZENS of books on binge eating disorder.
I have seen 3 different counsellors about this...
Watched video's
Kept a journal
used fitday
I have fasted many times in the past and just gained all my weight back and more.
IT just got out of control this last year when my relationship ended.
I have had a BRUTAL childhood facing rejection from both parents. I am 40 and nothing has changed,
I have this ANGER it is SCARY.
Is this the person I am if I do not binge eat?
Are these the emotions that I am stuffing down with food!
WIll I ever get this eating under control???
I am snapping at my 8 year old and my significant other. It is NASTY!
I feel my heart racing in anxiety.
I just don't know where/who to tun to...
:(
- Re: day 10 - SO ANGRY all the time!!... on-a-mission
15 y
2,440
This is a reply to # 1,394,080hi,
i would maybe give counselling another go, not all counsellors are good at their job and maybe you just hit unlucky.....find a counsellor that you like and feel comfortable with, one that preferably practises in CBT or a human givens therapist. it's the kind of therapy that touches but doesn't dwell on the past, and helps you to move forward and make improvements in your life fairly quickly.....good luck :)
- Re: day 10 - SO ANGRY all the time!!... Quinta_Essentia
15 y
3,119
MoreThis is a reply to # 1,394,080you arenot alone, when I fast I too find that long forgotten emotions rise to the surface. But that's a good thing, you can't deal with anything that is so far down you can't feel it. You got to feel to deal.
- Re: day 10 - SO ANGRY all the time!!... berti
15 y
2,151
This is a reply to # 1,394,499yes i was always like this. Every time I lost weight i would get really angry. I could never get below 55 kilos. Then since I have always wanted to lose weight i tried to with smoking cigarettes. that got me through the barrier. But i am not recommending it. I think smoking contributed to dental and other health problems. And so although i got my weight down to 50 kilos i was less healthy. To deal with the anger And the binge eating and all the feelings I suggest trying the Sedona method,. You can google it. This is a reminder to myself as well to go back and do that. I haven't been doing it lately and have gone back into eating gaining weight etc. eating seems to be a way of suppressing the emotions just like smoking also is. The Sedona method is about releasing emotions. I know what you mean. I would get so angry too when i went on an all fruit diet. And also i would be very direct with people when i lost weight and get myself into trouble with what i said.
- Re: day 10 - SO ANGRY all the time!!... berti
15 y
2,151
- Re: day 10 - SO ANGRY all the time!!... on-a-mission
15 y
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