I am curious if anyone else has experienced what I have been experiencing since I was about 18.

Every so often I would have these 'dreams' that terrified me. What happened was that I would be in my bedroom...it looked exactly like it does, totally real, but I would feel 'drugged' and my rational self would try to figure out what the hell was going on. I'd think: did someone put a drug in my food? What is happening here? The situations inside these dreams would vary from one to the next...but the common thread was that I could see everything as it was...and I felt surrounded by entities...sometimes they would manifest as people that I could hear, people in my bedroom, cats making me feel clausterphobic...there was something with me. Of course these experiences, coupled with the fact that it seemed soooo real were very scary....I felt like I wasn't in control. Often I would try try try with my mind to get up and try the light switch to turn on a light...it took all the effort in the world, but I did it...only to find the light was burnt out. (none of this really happened but it sure felt like it did) One time my 'body' would jiggle and wiggle and slip off the bed..and I slipped across the floor to a wall of windows at the front....I was being pulled! eeeek. Other times I floated up to the ceiling and was so terrified I fell back down with a thud. In the past 2 years they have become more complex...because I have gotten rid of the fear! I have walked around the apartment investigating stuff...putting my hand through an old wooden cabinet (that doesn't exist in real life, but is in my home in the dream)...bouncing up and down...up up to the ceiling.

Getting rid of the fear was the most amazing thing. I had often wondered if these scary dreams were related to out of body experiences (in my later 20's, before that I had no idea)...but it wasn't until last year when I did an intensive hypnotherapist course for a week...that it all came together. One of the teachers experienced the exact same things as me. And during the class, one night I had one of these fearful dreams...so I was able to tell the other students and teachers about it the next morning. That day, while in a hypnotic state, I began to cry because I was in a garden with my 10 year old self and my grandmother (who died 3 years ago). I was crying tears of joy because I felt such love from her and I loved her too. When the teacher brought me out of this crying state she asked me what colour my grandmother was. I said Pink. So she said that whenever I have my fearful dreams all I have to do is think of a Pink Protective Bubble and my fear will dissolve. Well! Perfectly, that night I had anothe of these dreams and was beginning to slip out of my body, scarily, when I simply thought: Pink Protective Bubble! And, voila!, I was in another completely different place!!! It was truly an out of body experience...I was drifting up a large old tree (leave-less) and I could see a silver/white harness attaching to my chest! I couldnt' believe it: I thought: my astral cord? naw. The rest of the experience was completely mind-blowing...I visited a past life of mine in England (ha! showing me the reason I don't pay attention to money in this life...and my dislike of England! ha. oh boy), then had this crystal clear voice speaking to me...as though he was there to answer all my questions...such a kind british accented voice (all this england stuff is strange to me, because I'm a total francophile...)...and we were clipclopping along in a buggy. It was just the feeling and the voice. No visuals. Our little conversation was amazing!! Then I awoke out of sheer excitement.

Anyway...I offer this to anyone who has similar experiences, but can't get past the fear. Now that I know this technique it has worked for me every time..and the experiences, where I go after the fear is dissolved...is truly amazing!!! I'm sure it will work in regular dreams too. In fact, one time, recently I was having a normal dream when all of a sudden I was confronted with this horrible looking door-less Doorway with darkness and neglect behind it (like squatters lived there). I was filled with fear, then remembered: pink protective bubble and walked into the door!! eeek. Another amazing experience followed where I floated around the house I was staying at...I tried to get to my friends room, but her door was shut! (after such a long floating journey to get there too!...alas, if only I'd realized I could pass through the door! next time....)

So...just think of a person you love or who loves you and extract the colour of that Love..and use that as your bubble that will protect you when feeling fearful in your dreams! I know it will work!

Happy Dreaming!

Tracey