Dear Fellow Orbs of Light -

I have been studying Rudy's experience for the last few years, and I don't fully understand it, but I will attempt to explain as simply as possible my particular perception of his experience of The Librarian (The God of this world and "Conditional" Love), and Yah (The God of Heaven and "Unconditional" Love):

Essentially, we've been duped. We were all in Heaven as one big ball of Light and everything was fine. Then a few of us decided that we wanted to experience a different kind of Love that we have in Heaven. So, a few of us "fell" from Heaven - along with one superior being, the latter of whom went on to create Earth - and set himself up as the God of this world (aka: The Librarian).

A few angels from Heaven (orbs of light like us - before we fell to Earth), told Yah about The Librarian. Yah didn't know what was going on Earth, because Earth is not of Heaven - and Yah can only know and see Love. Everyhing else that is not Love, is foreign to Yah.

Anyway, so Yah finds out about The Librarian via a few Heavenly Angels. And then Yah decides he must do something about the situation. So, he sends Jesus, who tries to explain to people like the Pharisees that the God of this world that they are workshipping is the Father of Lies.

Nobody listens to Jesus, and they kill him - and the Librarian goes on to play the torcherous game of punishing us when we're "bad" and rewarding us when we're "good".

The Librarian is the one that created the Ten Commandments - and about a gazillion other "conditional" rules for Love - while we don't have to do one darn thing to earn Yah's Love. We already have it - and we always will.

Now then - what do we do since we are plainly now stuck in the Librarian's game on Earth?

We make the best of it and show loving-kindness as much as we can - to as many as we can. We go and be as successful as we are able to be - and share whatever success we have with others.

Nobody's not going to Heaven. We're ALL going to Heaven. In fact, we're ALREADY in HEAVEN.

Our Higher Selves are the ones who have the contracts with The Librarian. The Librarian and our Higher Selves don't feel pain. But they learn the lessons of love through our pain on Earth.

Not so fair, uh? Nope. But that's the way it is.

So how do you ultimately distinguish between Yah and the Librarian?

Yah is Unconditional Love. The Librarian is Conditional Love.

The Librarian is not evil, just not one of the nicest beings in the Universe.

Yah, meanwhile, is THEE nicest, most loving Mommy/Daddy in all creation.

And again, just like any truly loving parent, we don't have to do one darn thing to earn that Love. We already have it.

And remember this: If God is Love, and Love is never jealous - then how could there be a jealous God? Simple: THAT jealous God is the Librarian. And NOT Yah.

However, The Librarian (male) is simply a lower version of Yah (more of a female "presence").

Also, too, when it's time to leave this world we co-created with the Librarin (when we fell from Heaven with him), and we travel through the proverbial "tunnel," just make sure you head straight on INTO THE LIGHT. Indeed, return to the Light from whence you came. Don't look to the sides of the tunnel, where you may see the spirits of dead relatives who may advise you to return to Earth. And don't start feeling guilt about leaving loved ones behind. Everything will be fine.

Just keep looking straight ahead (until "morning"), and then look UP - and complete your return journey back INTO THE LIGHT.

And how do you prepare for such a journey while you are still here on Earth?

Bless those who curse you, forgive those who hurt you and Love those who hate you. Because you only take with you to Heaven every gentle act and intention of Love and Loving-Kindness. Everything else that is not love (i.e. hurt feelings, hate, jealousy, envy, resentment, judgement, unkind acts, unforgiveness, etc.) - all of that stuffy remains here on Earth or in the tunnel) in the form of spirit bodies which are sometimes referrred to as "ghosts") - and all of that stuff then melts away in the glow of Yah's unconditional Love.

Orb of Light