I don't know how I feel today. I feel good I guess. Just kind of at peace about things, a bit numb and almost like i am not on a fast at all.

I have only drank 40 oz of water today and only when I felt slightly ill. Actually, which hasn't been lot. I have an awful tast in my mouth and I smell. I know I am detoxing and I don't like the smell. My friend said she doesn't smell it, but I do. It lingers off and on and it bugs me.

I found two blemishes on my face this morning. I hope I don't have too many there. I would rather have them on my back so I can hid them.

I have walked 92% of my goal today, which is 4.40 miles. I could have walked more but I got off work at 1:00 p.m and I went home and got in bed for rest. I slept for 2 1/2 hours before going to my 2nd job. I feel like I have energy tonight.

I gave God the problems last night. It was so hard, and I cried when I did, but I did it. I woke up very happy and at peace about things. I thought about Person A, or I tried to, but it just was like nothing in my mind or heart. I tried it several times today and the same. Just kind of a blank feeling. God is at work there.

Well, Person B surprised me today. Actually his daughter did. I was taking care of a customer and after wards. A little girl came up to me and asked me if my name was *****. I said Yes. Then she asked me "Do you know my dad?" I said "Who is your dad" As soon as she asked my name, I know who it was. She said "****" I said "Yes, you must be "*******." I then asked her quickly where her father was. She told me that he was out in the Mall and wouldn't come in. I said "Good, keep him there." I said that because I was so nervous at the point. Well, he did come in and I could see him walking around and I just hid in the back for a while. It was too nerve racking for me. I looked horrible! My hair need washed! I didn't want him to meet me like this. All my friends in the comestic department were trying to get me to come out and talk to him. They even sat me down and put make up on me in the back! I told them no!

Well, he left and texted me that boy, I was shy. Yeah, I am. I guess I don't like surprises like that when I am not prepared.

Just the shock alone made me want to get something to eat. I didn't because I know God is working with me right now. The feeling for Person A is fading. I just wondering how I feel after my fast. Will it come back?

I should have known that it wasn't going to work with Person A. My mother had to remind me that at Christmas. I gave him and his sons gifts, but I didn't get one and I drove around and sat in my car for 5 hours waiting for him to spend time with his one son on Christmas. I remembered crying in my car, wishing I was with him and his son, rather then just sitting by myself on Christmas day, in my car, waiting for the all clear from him. I have never been treated like that, but yet I just accepted it because I loved him and he is very protective of his son and he need special time with just him and his son. It is so sad that I gave so much. So much love wasted.

Well, it doesn't look like Person B is going to call me tonight. I think I will go to bed and get some more rest. Just sleep it off.

I am almost bored right now.

I hope everyone is keeping up with their fast. I seems everyone is doing so well. That is GREAT. You CAN do it! I belive in you all!