Hello everyone. This is my first post here so I want to apologize for my lousy spelling and grammar, I don't use English every day so I will probably write something stupid :)
I've seen this site accidentally and decided to seek for advice because I'm sick and tired and really need one. Much crazy sh*t happened to me this year so I'm kinda depressed and have a lot on my mind, but what bothers me most at this moment of time is this stupid situation which I'm having with a girl I've been seeing for like 2 months.

So it's like this.. I'm 22, she's 25. She is fu**d up (her words of descr*iption).. some guy dumped her 6,7 months ago after 3 years of relationship and broke her heart, so she turned into some kind of "live for a moment, don't feel anything" empty person and she don't want to connect with guys anymore, like she stopped believing in love, just sex & fun kind of stuff.
Even thought she defines herself that way, deep in my heart I feel that she is so much more than that, I feel that all those things about not feeling anything is just a mask, and I can totally understand that. While we were seeing, she relaxed about that fears and everything and I got that feeling which I described above, I got hope..like, when she hugged me, kissed me, that look, that glow in her eyes.. I felt that something deeper is going on.

On the other hand, only I think that way about her and about this situation. Everyone else keeps telling me that she will broke my heart, that she is not for relationships and that I should forget about getting serious with her. And in addition to that, she never told anybody anything positive about our little romance, always like ¨I don't care.. whatever..¨ and that kind of stuff. But she told me once how she would like to get serious with me, how she likes me and how she will try to become my girlfriend, which is kinda funny btw, because, why and how you try become something you obviously don't feel?
It's like she's slightly different around her friends when it comes to romantic emotions than she is when we are alone and together..Around them, she is that unreachable and untouchable bitch who don't care, but when she's with me, I sense that she might feels you know? Which again, I can understand, because her fears could alter her appearance in a sense that she won't allow anyone to hurt her again by showing she don't care. But in reality, I'm actually not sure how she feels, and if she feels, since she don't wanna talk about that, and I've got so deeply in love with her..ah. But she keeps unplugging me from her life so often, and I can't stand it. I guess that no matter how much troubles you have, you can't say that If someone who you supposedly like asks you how are you and sends you a kiss after you ignored him for a week is making pressure on you. What kind of pressure is that?

So here is my problem.. She suddenly distanced herself from me and didn't call for a week now, nothing.. So I called her 2 days ago and asked her how she is and why she don't wanna speak with me. She told me: ¨I don't know¨ .. like she has some serious issues this days and dropped me that thing about pressure. So I told her, hey, it's OK, relax, I'm here for you, no pressure, take your time, call me, because I really understand and I know how it feels when fears eat your best, when you overwhelmed with problems and bad things you need to take care of and when you simply don't have time..but what is actually going on here? How come that she has time for everything and everyone else, but not for me? And I've already crossed the line calling her more often then she calls me, which is actually stupid to think that way because calling someone you like and enjoy should not be an issue rite?

Anyway, she didn't call.. I really don't want to give up, somehow every thing that was good in my life got screwed through time, and I am so tired of giving up, plus I like her so much that it hurts in my stomach just thinking that I'll need to forget her, and for some reason I can't shake off the feeling that she maybe wants us to be together but might just be afraid..and I was on and off in all kinds of relationships before and I feel it is time and this is the girl you know, but on the other hand, I don't want to hurt myself or get hurt by her more than it already hurts me..she seems so uninterested, reserved.. And now I'm actually not sure what the hell is going on, is it possible that she is just playing with me, and how sick, selfish and immature is that? Should I just wait to see what happens? Am I being paranoid, pushy and pressuring her somehow or she is just an immature and manipulative bitch, or maybe too broken? Well, my heart is broken too, in so many ways and pieces..but I still believe in love, I feel love, I define my life through love because I think that's the way, and I really want to have something real with her..but should I waste my time and love on someone who maybe doesn't want it?

Eh, sorry this got so long, I kinda wrote my random thoughts about situation, guess all this sounds stupid, childish and less important than some serious issues people here post, but that's how it is..I will appreciate any word of wisdom, from both male and female perspective. Thanks