Go shopping and buy yourself some nice clothes. Punishing yourself is only perpetuating a low self-esteem. Log everything you eat, or at least make a spur of the moment comprehensive list. Then decide to cut a couple small things out. Like if you drink 3 sodas per day, cut one or two out and exchange them with water. If you eat something that is a naughty snack, cut half of it out or all of it out if you snack a lot. Slowly make changes in your diet. Discover new low cal meals you can eat that taste good. Go check out your local health food store and see what they have that'll make finding new foods easy. Don't go balls out or on a fad diet. They don't work long term. 6 months of being skinny on a fad diet seems nice, but you want to lose the weight for a lifetime.

Also, many people have a problem with emotional eating and don't even know it. The next time you find yourself going to grab a bite, think about how you feel. Maybe even write it down. If you're eating because you're upset, depressed, bored, to celebrate, or feel like munching while watching tv, don't eat. Go grab a bottle of water instead. Most false cravings last 3 minutes. Ride it out.

Spend time playing with your beautiful kids. You will get a great workout and it will be quality time for you and your children. Plus they learn from your example and being active with them is a great example to set. It's easy. Go out and play frisbee or fly a kite with them. Or just wrestle with them on the living room floor for 10 minutes.

Clean out your colon. You can find some good home colonic systems out there for cheap...don't do a enema because that doesn't clean out the colon. Most people have pounds of buildup clinging to their colon, preventing them from getting proper nourishment and causing their body to take more food into the body in a futile attempt to compensate. Once your colon is clean, your digestion will improve, you will have more energy, look younger, and will lose weight.

Lovey

I know exactly what you are going through. As a child and teenager I was always either stick skinny or physically fit. I have three children now the youngest 18 months. :) I gained weight with each child and have had the hardest time losing it. I have tried everything from Atkins to no Sugar to just plain trying to eat healthy. Its not that easy! I am 5'7" and 234 pounds with a body mass index of 36.6. Ew! I have been reading every forum that has to do with water and juice fasting, and weightloss, raw food, and nutrition on curezone. What seems to make sense to me is the Water Fasting and following up with a raw food diet. I plan to do a 20 day Water Fast after thanksgiving as my family would flip out if I didn't touch the turkey lol.

With the water fast, it at least cleans out your system and can get rid of some of the physical addictions from preservatives and additives (thank you usa government!). Then if you follow up with a raw food diet and gradually introduce certain wholesome foods after a good while how could you lose? I know the real challenge for me in the water fasting, as I have accomplished two, each 24 hours only, is that the hunger did not bother me. I craved the taste of food. And cooking for three young children can be hard to say the least when I just want to nibble! But hang in there, you can do it. Just know that I am going through the same obstacles and trying to reach the same goal. To be healthy!!!!

Good luck to you!