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Day 5 - feeling better but very anti-social
feeling like a recluse!
Date: 9/29/2006 12:00:46 PM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 2836 times Hi everyone,
I am feeling SO much better compared to yesterday, no depressing thoughts, overwhelming hunger pains and general miserableness. I guess the mind IS a powerful thing huh? And I guess it was just a whole overload of toxins all at once. hmm others have said that Day 2 and 3 are the hardest but I reckon I got those two complied into my Day 4 hehe.
Once again, I eliminated quite a bit today and the SWF is no longer a problem anymore. I am so lucky to have a toilet about 5 metres from my bedroom!
The biggest NEGATIVE by far has been that since being on this cleanse I have stayed at home except for going to work and getting groceries. I guess I should mention now that I am a university student. I feel like a social hermit!! It didn't matter at the beginning of the week as no one was really around, but now I keep (unintentionally) bumping into my friends. I say unintentionally as I knew that as soon as I started seeing people, I would be propelled with invites to dinner/drinks. Sure enough, I was asked to go out drinking and clubbing tonight. And I know I am in a student culture where they would think I was barmy/stupid/sad for going on a cleanse and I really dislike being asked and having to lie (once again it evokes feelings that I am doing some thing bad/wrong).
Yes, I know that we are not supposed to be limited on the cleanse, and I know very well that there's nothing stopping me from going out and having a good time without alcohol. BUT I'm scared of suddenly having an energy drop/low stage and having a miserable time sitting around like a lemon (ha!). Plus I tend to be a very energetic and cheerful person around my friends so I don't want them to think something is up.
Ah well...
This brings me on to my behaviour in terms of food/drink post-cleanse. I have stocked up on plenty of healthy supplies for post-cleanse food. I think I'll do ok as long as I can treat myself now again (I am really against denying myself completely to something as once again I get psychologically wired funny and will then binge). I have found some great recipes that sound scrum-di-li-um-ptious (that said, all food sounds scrumptious at the moment ;)!
BUT I can not give up alcohol. Yes, I know it's weak. I don't really drink during the holidays but at university I can't help but love the drinking culture. I have had some of the most fantastic times out dancing/laughing etc when drinking. I know this just highlights my (probably) weak self-esteem etc but I just find it to be a great release. It is already killing me that I can't drink next week. Bah!
Ok, enough with the whining.
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