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Massive Successes Yesterday
Massive Successes yesterday
at Whole Foods. Today will
be another day of receiving.
Date: 4/15/2007 10:50:31 AM ( 17 y ) ... viewed 1735 times 8:29 AM
April 15, 07
Lots to do in the next half hour.
This is the day when the application is due
to self nominant for an E.A.R.T.H Award from
the wonderful people at Earthworks who put on
the spectacular San Diego EarthFair.
Joe and I will be having a major exhibit there next
weekend.
There is still a ton of wonderful things to put in
order for that event.
Yesterday was the Local Vendors Day at Whole Foods Hillcrest.
I took a lot of photos.
I have a lot of Not Enuf issues that come up for me
around Receiving.
I sucked it up yesterday and basically did what was
needed to get some co-sponsors for the upcoming Earth Day
when we will launch the Rodriguez Ranch Buy Back.
I asked for $200.00 each from a number of new sponsors
and got it. I might have asked for more, but they were
basically all new people to meet. Once I show them
what I can do, I will ask for more from each.
This morning I took a few moments to shed some tears.
When I have this amount of success,
I yearn for the arms of a woman who will take in the
overflow, and give those words of appreciation
"You done good!" My mind goes back to Twin Soul/Best Friend.
She really knows how to express appreciation.
When she does it is so innocent, so real.
It is enough to make it all worth while,
all the work and organic steps it takes to
succeed at anything.
I am keeping my distance now from Twin Soul/Best Friend.
I am doing this for my own good and for her own good.
I want her to be free.
I want her to have what she imagines she wants.
I do not want to be in her energy field and block
her new life coming in, even if that life right now
for both us is being our own best friend.
I sense all is well with her.
She has a remarkable pattern of mirroring me
in my own growth.
I feel she is doing well.
I am feeling very strong in myself.
One of the most Massive successes I had
I will blog separately.
I will be producing a Whole Foods Loca Farmers' Market
on a regular weekly basis, beginning around Father's Day
in June.
That is outrageous powerful.
Twin Soul/Best Friend I am sure
is very happy for me.
She was resistant to use the word "proud"
because she thought that sounded "paternal"
when I would say I was "proud" of her
over something she did.
I am proud of her.
She is a remarkable woman.
It has been a gift to be physically intimate with her.
That is over now.
I have committed to that.
I cannot say if I will go back to being friends
in the physical with her.
We both need space I feel.
I cannot say how long it would take to not
be "dangerous" or feel "dangerous" with her.
"Dangerous?"
When I was getting to know LH,
she was in this oddball marriage.
They were basically roommates. Her husband
was gay, or wanted to be.
She showed up at a Winter Solstice here
at the EGIC. She played the harp.
One night in the early days....
I told her how attracted I was feeling...
I said, I am feeling dangerous!"
She said, "Come over and be dangerous!"
I liked that choice of words.
That was many years ago.
L inspired "My Goddess Prayer for You,"
one of The Seven Love Charms--Cures.
That was written after we were together for five
years.
We broke up once during thsoe five years.
Then I wrote a whole poetry book out of that grief
and growth.
Then we came together again.
We performed the poems I wrote about breaking up!!!!
What Chustapah!!! (Jewish word...can't exactly explain it now...)
Then later after we broke up again...I wrote another book...
"Confessions of an Essene Visionary."
"My Goddess Prayer for You" came out of listening to LH.
Richard Lawrence, a man who played the bells and Tibetan Bowls
with me in Closing Ceremonies, once said that
if I never did anything in my life except write that one poem,
I would have done enough.
"My Goddess Prayer for You" is a tribute to all women
and has been used since 1987 in many women's circles.
Twin Soul/Best Friend inspired "Soul Mates"
#4 of the Seven Love Cures.
"It helps knowing I'm in it for the growth,
my growth. I know my life is about my soul,
and how my soul grows through knowing you."
That is the beginning.
Oh well...let it go, Leslie.
Enjoy this most amazing day.
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