I need to get to the Hillcrest Farmers' Market right now.
I went out into the garden and took photos for a larger project
called "A Kaddish for the Earth."
I would like to make a movie for healing that combines
music of the Kirtan Rabbi Andrew Hahn with images from
the land where I live.
I hardly have time to to transcribe my morning notes.
I want to look at the footage later.
Grounding Green from FES, Flourish line remedy
was a flower essence I just took.
I began the early morning capturing deep emotions,
writing them down, and then I received messages:
My first words were a self interview:
Exhausted my options.
Canit sustain my impulses to do:
A creative plan came to me Friday and Saturday,
but too much experiences to process it out.
My head is tired now....
OTHER MORNING SELF INTERVIEW
Too Big.
To much to process:
Grief from week of housemate search.
This is Bigger than I can do.
PROJECT NEEDS
This project, the land,
needs widespread support.
I am feeling depleted and weakened
and up against my core areas of fear
at a time when I need strength....
Then, I went out into the garden
and started to take photos...
This was a heightened time of ecstatic
connection.
I will post those photos later.
I had feelings of great power.
Disappointment:
I did not reach out to the community last night
when I had the opportunity.
I was processing my stuff,
core fear.
Sadness I missed the opportunity.
So much healing work between Friday and now.
No time now to write.
Here is one of the photos I took this mornign
in the mirror of the Dome.
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