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DAY 1-Learning to Love myself
Finding myself.
Date: 4/16/2008 3:33:54 PM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 2813 times My first time 'blogging'
Okay Here I go...Taking a deep breath, I can do this, I can do this. Lets start with my dietary habits. I will give a brief rundown on my dietary habits. I am vegetarian. however I tend to overeat, especially after my second baby I just had a few months ago.I eat a lot of junk, chips, chocolate, pastries, rice, potatoes, etc..etc..and oh yeah..bread. I have about 40 lbs to lose. I never like the feeling I get after I have eaten. Guilt, depression, anxiety, anger. Everyday I say I can do this, I can do this..then I see the chocolate cake staring me in the face. I say to myself.."I can start tomorrow, today is my last day to overeat and eat junk". I do that everyday.
Except Today..Today is different. It's different because I realized and learned that I have to stop trying to diet and stop thinking of weight loss all the time and put the scale away. I have to learn how to love myself..Love myself? Yes..Love myself. THis is where it all started.
I had wonderful meditation session last night. This morning I woke up feeling good. Today is different. I had a wonderful healthy breakfast consists of: 1 slice wholewheat toast with sugar free jam, cup of low sugar earl grey tea no milk, one slice of soy cheese and half banana. I did it, I had a healthy meal for the first time for a long long time. It felt good and I felt satisfied. Less is More, It's true I don't need food to fill me up. I needed myself, love, god, Omnipresent consciousness..whatever you want to call it. I have read about it before, but never really clicked with me..but now I have experience a bit of it..and Wow!
Can't wait for tomorrow.
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