The Night Before
Ready and Willing- my thoughts and reasons
Date: 1/25/2008 9:39:55 PM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 1547 times I've been on the computer every night this week, trying to get enough helpful information. I want to be sure I can do this, and for the right reasons. Currently I am at 128-130lbs, standing 5'1". I think I look ok, nothing special. I don't want to just ok, I want to be a MILF. I want my husband to show me off. I want to be that young mom whom everyone goes to for advise on their bodies. I want to be healthy and not crave junk. Sometimes I find myself eating, not because I'm hungry, but bored.
Why do we eat? Stupid question, not really. Seriously, we crave these foods that we know are bad for us, yet we still eat them. And WHY? I don't have an answer, but I wonder what will happen if I change my eating lifestyle. If I loss weight and gain muscle in the mean time great. I usually go to the gym 5-6 times a week for almost 2hrs. I want to be 40 and look like I'm 25. Currently I'm 25 and I feel like I'm 40. Always tired, not enough hours in the day. I want to wake up, stretch, get my daughter up for school and get through an entire day without wondering when I'm going to finally go to bed. I mean seriously, I say to myself "Can't I just sleep, is it almost that time". And sex, forget about it, I'm so tired that if I haven't done it by 8-8:30pm, good luck trying.
At one point, after I had my 5yr, I looked amazing. I weighed 141 lbs the day before I gave birth. I worked out constantly and maintained a healthy diet while being pregnant! HOW THE HELL IS THAT POSSIBLE. I craved salad instead of ice cream. I craved gallons of ice colded water instead of soda. Three days after, I weighed 117 lbs, and 2 months later I weighed 92 lbs. Sure that was a little unhealthy, but that's what happens when you work 40 hrs and go to school full-time, mind you a new born baby at home. Needless to say the last 20 lbs not so healthy.
I will break my blogs down into what I drink, how I feel, excersie, physical changes, likes/dislikes of the fast.
If no one reads, then fine my own secret diary. Neddless to say I only want to hear from others if they have good juicing suggestions/recipes or words of encouragement. I do not want negative thoughts please. I hope to write every day if not every other day. I plan to read other Blogs and get ideas. I will post some good juicing recipes myself.
I'm a little nervous about tomorrow, but we'll do it!
-Hogan
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