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Post-Fast-Plan--Draft 1 19 y
Become a food snob
August 26, 2005 @ 5:45 PM
DRINK A LEMONADE EVERY MORNING
To set my intention for a healthy day and to remind myself that I never want to only drink lemonade like this for 40 days again!
3 X A WEEK
To work out a minimum of 3 X per week in a gym. In a gym because I am really motivated by the environment and because I can use the weights.
SUGAR FREE
To go the distance of staying healthy for the rest of my life. I decided to go 5 years without eating the obvious sugars in the obvious forms. And when/if I resume sugar intake I will do as the french do...nothing more than three ... read more Family And Fasting And Going The Distance 19 y
That is when I knew, I am really fasting now--I am going the distance.
August 26, 2005 @ 5:38 PM
This afternoon I found myself squeezing enough lemons and limes to last me the rest of today and probably tomorrow (1 cup) so we will se how many lemonades that makes. That is when I knew, I am really fasting now--I am going the distance.
I feel better than good--not great. I can feel myself losing weight (I have lost and gained enough times in my life that I know what it feels like), I feel empty (in a very good way), and still so glad I am finally doing this again.
My mom is here now. She drove up last night to pick up my baby sister. They will be stayi ... read more Salt Water Success 19 y
This morning I got through the salt water flush without gagging at all
August 26, 2005 @ 4:32 PM
This morning I got through the salt water flush without gagging at all. I kept saying, ”Slow and steady wins the race”, in my mind as I took sip after sip of salty water. Towards the end it go really difficult. I had to rinse my tongue with tap water in between gulps, but I made it! The Salt water flush works really well for me--and very fast. With in five minutes the elimination process starts and with in 20-30 minutes I am in the clear (no pun intended).
visit the page The Big Slide 19 y
I couldn't self talk my way into not caring--even to make my little sister happy. I did't go down the slide and I should have...for her.
August 25, 2005 @ 12:11 AM
As we approached the water park smiles formed on our mouths. My daughter looked on in awe at the brightly colored play structure in the middle of a swimming pool with water spraying out from all different directions and in so many different ways. This was going to be fun! We hurried into the changing room to get our suits on.
As we exited the changing room I felt the sun on my feet, the hot cement. Then I felt the sun on my back, my back. My back with two rolls on each side and a swimming suit that shows all (who designed the plus size suits with a large ha ... read more A Dream On Night Number Three 19 y
I am swimming in the ocean at night. I am underneath the water swimming not needing to come up for air.
Most people are scared of sharks. Most people that have seen Jaw’s are terrified of sharks. I am terrified and intrigued by sharks. In Thailand and Panama while swimming I must have asked the ”captain” of our boat 50 times if there were sharks ”this deep? Well how deep do you have to go before there are sharks? Etc.” I would find myself relaxing, swimming in the most beautiful places on earth (to me) and then I would remember that there could be a lone shark swimming just beneath my ankle, freak out, end of swimming. That is why this dream is so amazing and for lack of a better word, cool. ... read more Did I say it was gone? 19 y
the Subway sign sent me into immediate imaginings of shoving half a cheese steak sandwhich down my throat.
August 25, 2005 @ 5:15 PM
Today was very busy and I went too long without my lemonade handy...so by the time my husband and I rolled into Ralph’s to buy more distilled water for my fast...the Subway sign sent me into immediate imaginings of shoving half a cheese steak sandwich down my throat. I made it home though and I am drinking lemonade! The good news is I didn’t actually feel tempted to eat...I was just HUNGRY! visit the page 6:00 AM Breakfast 19 y
I am on the forth day of my fast and doing great. I feel hungry, but the desire for food is gone.
August 25, 2005 @ 9:48 AM
I am on the forth day of my fast and doing great. I feel hungry, but the desire for food is gone. Lemonade takes care of the hungry feeling immediately which is nice. I do feel hungry often though so I am drinking a lemonade at least every 1 1/2 hours (sometimes half). Hopefully in another few days I will be down to 1 every two hours.
It has only been four days but I can already feel my body. I can feel my body in ways that I haven’t for a long time. I woke up this morning at 6:00 AM and made my husband and sister breakfast, and then drove him to work and to ... read more Edited 19 y
I had forgotten how much fasting is about discipline, self control, and will.
August 24, 2005 @ 8:39 PM
I am sitting here next to my baby while she eats her dinner. Next to her is my sister and next to her my husband. My baby is taking little bites of chicken, my sister is munching corn, and my husband is downing a variety of veggies fresh of the grill. The smell is wonderful. A few minutes ago I was feeling left out of it all, but now amazingly I am OK. I am hungry too. I could definitely use another lemonade, but I am not overwhelmed by the food. Thank goodness! I was hoping this would happen and it has on this evening of my third day.
I had forgotten how mu ... read more Good Morning's 19 y
My headache was dull and I felt so glad (yes, glad is the right word) to be on the third day of my fast. I am surprised I made it through yesterday.
August 24, 2005 @ 9:29 AM
This morning I woke up next to my daughter. She was laying on her back gazing up at the ceiling and looking so relaxed, as she often does. She is thirteen months old and ever since she noticed how her dad would lay back on a pillow in bed and read a book--she has wanted to do this. So this morning began as most mornings do...she lay back on a pillow and when our gazes met she signed ”book”. So Sweet. My headache was dull and I felt so glad (yes, glad is the right word) to be on the third day of my fast. I am surprised I made it through yesterday.
I wanted to ... read more Second Day Blues 19 y
Taco Bell, McDonalds, Dairy Queen, and then once in the airport smelling cinabon--G-d. It is a miracle that I made it through this night.
The day went OK. I didn’t think about the fact that I was fasting much, but tonight has been so hard. Honestly, not much of me wants to keep on going. Only vanity at this point. Hoping tomorrow I feel more motivated. My husband said, ”It only gets easier.” That helped me get through my drive to the airport...passing Taco Bell, McDonalds, Dairy Queen, and then once in the airport smelling Cinabon--G-d. It is a miracle that I made it through this night.
Well, I am not through the night until the morning...wish me luck-no-wish me will power! visit the page The Complaint Venting This Sucks Page 19 y
It makes me feel better to just say these things or write them down on paper.
August 23, 2005 @ 6:18 PM
Complaint #1
I am about to embark on a freedom moment. My husband is going to be home with our baby while I go and pick up my sister from the airport. Usually I would be looking so forward to my fast-food stop, coffee, or some other private pleasure to enjoy while driving alone. But alas...here I am fasting. Well into my second day and I am not going to quit. Not for fast food or Coffee. I am not willing to trade my health for these things anymore.
Complaint #2
This sucks. My head hurts. I feel light headed. My husband is eating delicious nachos whic ... read more Chicken Soup and The Ocean 19 y
Sometimes I imagine I am drinking in the ocean. That she is going to cleanse me...what could be more beautiful?
August 23, 2005 @ 10:13 AM
This morning I debated doing the salt water flush. I know I will ”go” on my own today and tomorrow most likely, but I decided to go for it. I got my 32 ounce jar and filled it with warm water. Through the glass jar I could see the salt turning into a big white cloud. I picked up my chop stick and stirred so it would not all settle on the bottom. I walked into the bathroom, facing the mirror with the sink ready to catch whatever I couldn’t keep down.
I got through half with no problems. I thought about chicken soup and the ocean. Sometimes I imagine I am dri ... read more 1:00 AM...The Danger Zone! 19 y
I took out a piece of bread from the loud plastic bag
August 23, 2005 @ 9:23 AM
Whew! Last night my daughter kept squirming around unable to get comfortable for sleep. Finally at 1:00 AM I got up and walked her around the house. Thinking that perhaps her problem was similar to mine (hunger) I took out a piece of bread from the loud plastic bag (surely my husband was thinking--she’s quitting!) and then I spread peanut butter onto just one half. Then I thought I am going to eat, I can’t think of the purpose of this, and I can’t sleep. And so I spread peanut butter onto the second half. But somehow through my tiredness I didn’t take a bite of ... read more Hard 19 y
I am craving food!
August 22, 2005 @ 5:44 PM
I am not having cravings for bad foods...but I am craving food! Now is when it gets hard for me. The evening. When I fasted for the first time I had about 9 beginnings because in the evening I just caved into wanting to eat. No more daily routine to distract me...only free time.
But I am focused. I am determined. I am not giving up! visit the page I Am Not Going to Entertain That 19 y
I am not going to entertain that, I tell myself over and over again.
I am not going to entertain that. I am not going to entertain that, I tell myself over and over again. I have only been fasting for four hours. I have taken in two lemonades and am working on my third. I have been drinking a lot of water too.
During my baby’s lunch today it was so natural for me to want to accept her offerings of food, but I had to say, ”no” today and shake my head. She didn’t understand so I ended up pretending to take bites of the pinto bean, nectarine slice, or Kosher hot dog that she wanted to share with me.
When she went down for her nap, my body reacted to the ... read more Beginning 19 y
I haven't drank any lemonade yet and I am not going to do the salt water flush today. I feel motivated though. I feel sure that I will drink that first lemonade, but those hostile voices are very loud this AM.
August 22, 2005 @ 10:40 AM
My baby and I slept in until 10:00 AM. We usually rise around 7:30 or 8:00 AM, but we both needed the sleep. It was a long weekend. We purchased living room furniture for our apartment and spent the weekend organizing our boxes, our messes, our disarray into a very cozy home.
I haven’t drank any lemonade yet and I am not going to do the salt water flush today. I feel motivated though. I feel sure that I will drink that first lemonade, but those hostile voices are very loud this AM. Telling me to eat. How good would a coffee be? How good would some oatmeal ... read more The Night Before Another Beginning 19 y
All the voices in my head began this evening. The angry voices, the tantrum voices, the defeatist voices, the voices speaking out against change. All those voices were winning. I began to feel like giving up before I began. I started imaging what I would eat to sabotage my attempt at being healthier and living again. So I began searching for my inspiration and reminded myself of my prior experience.
Sunday, August 20, 2005 @ 12:38 AM
All the voices in my head began this evening. The angry voices, the tantrum voices, the defeatist voices, the voices speaking out against change. All those voices were winning. I began to feel like giving up before I began. I started imaging what I would eat to sabotage my attempt at being healthier and living again. So I began searching for my inspiration and reminded myself of my prior experience.
I successfully completed a 20 day lemonade fast one year ago. I lost 30 pounds, stopped snoring, rose at 6:00 AM without an alarm, worked out 6 days a w ... read more |