Rejuvenation 11 y
Mental, emotional, physical. I have four days of glorious nothing that lie ahead for me. No stress, no sales, no forced marches. Embracing that itís always now. Always.
So much has stayed the same for me. Limbo time. As though I stand in the doorway poised to jump forward into my life as the wheels turn forward. Only nothing is turning forward at the moment and the pretty coloured balls are still in the air. Like any good juggler none of them have hit the ground, and wonít. BUT. I am ready for whatever is next.
No word on the job. They are still deciding. I am up and down and back an ... read more
Chubster-McWubster 11 y
Master Cleanse rebound
The good news is that the Master Cleanse improved my adrenal fatigue tenfold. The not-so-good news is that Iíve gained 12 pounds (give or take, am in the throes of wicked PMS)since coming off of it. WHOA!!! Willy nilly.
Here is the funny thing. Iím not upset about it even with summer looming somewhat around the corner. Nor am I going to go Cuckoo Magoo over this and beat myself up over it. Really, Iíve been laughing about it all day. Just am going to start eating mindfully again and staying away from post-work Muesli and almond milk.
Back to spin class! Ha. I donít mind the slight ro ... read more
Such sadness 11 y
Right down the street from my house is one of those suburban strip malls that are so ubiquitous these days. Grocery store, donut shop, Starbucks, clothing store, Blockbuster and Rite Aid. Thereís a bit of a fake turret centered over Starbucks thatís built into the otherwise non-descript architecture.
Some weeks back a pair of crows painstakingly built their nest and a couple of days later the Property Management Company promptly took it down. There was nothing in it at the time and the crows simply rebuilt. Then there were caution signs about, warning people of what lay above and the lo ... read more
Another great day 11 y
I seem to be having a lot of them of late. Good for me. Just happy and buoyant and full of energy. This on the heels of some tummy issue on Friday last. Havenít been ill in ages but I do believe I made up for it that day and Saturday. All better now. Yay.
Another interview for the dream job comes this Tuesday. This time with another VP. And when I say Ēdream jobĒ I mean it because I really feel like I am walking around in some sort of dream in which I get whatever I really want. Anyway, itís just rather cool that I wrote down specifics about what I wanted and this position embodies all ... read more
Seeing the best 11 y
And, yes I shall continue to see the best in all that I see no matter how dim the light seems to be.
Itís been a rough and great 10 days. Both. Kinda like life. Up and down, more up than down. Contrast is good.
Good news first. I was approached out-of-the-blue by another company in my field and they are wooing me. Basically, this job would be everything I wrote down in my Book of Days wish-book 6 months ago. Down to the last teeniest wish. And, believe me, I went nuts with my wishes figuring that manís reach should abolutely exceed his grasp and that if you are going to wish, do it u ... read more
Oh how the (not-so)mighty have fallen 11 y
I succumbed to one cup of coffee yesterday. Funny thing is that I didnít enjoy a drop and the funnier (eh, not so funny) bit is that I couldnít sleep worth much last night. I finally broke out the olí iPhone and listened to some binaural brain beats and voila...dream land. Live and learn.
A forced march yesterday. Left, left, left, right, left. And yet I found quite a bit of laughter and fun in my day. If you canít laugh and be silly, what point is there? I worked with a supplier to the company for whom I work. Cool bright guy that Iíve worked with before. We sell well together but it o ... read more
Believing in myself. 11 y
Im not one to fall prey to the machinations of others. Nor is it very likely to find me down or sad for much more than a moment or so (in the grand scheme of things). It doesnít phase me when people misjudge me or give me less credit than is really due. I couldnít care less what they think or how they feel about me. Thatís their business. Whatís my business is how I feel about me.
Itís been a day of challenges in this arena called life. And yet, Iíve either risen to them all or have let them fall away from me like so much un-needed baggage. I found myself daydreaming wistfully that I ha ... read more
I wonder 11 y
why I wonder
how I can navigate the road to health through alternative means. Allopathic medicine and I donít make good bedfellows (or any sort of bedfellows for that matter).
For about a year Iíve thought I had adrenal fatigue. Itís been forever since I believed my problems to be thyroid related and yet I have no issues with a dwindling immune system. The last time I was ill? Donít remember. I seldom have colds (years), never have the flu, no candida, no chronic fatigue.
Yet, losing my father and abusing herbal ephedra knocked me and my metabolism on our respective asses. I couldnít lose weight ... read more
The Funny Thing Is... 11 y
I prefer raw
I went off of eating raw today and felt a huge difference. And not in a good way. Really, I thought raw was just sort of hypey and the fad du jour but my eyes have been opened. I ate cooked food today. Eggs for breakfast, fish for lunch with sweet potato fries. I segued back into raw for dinner but not before having a bite of Jís deli sammich. We hiked and ran errands but I dragged my arse all day.
No energy, no zip and (not surprising given how I felt)no fruits. Normally I have fruits with all meals (toms and avos are fruits too) and today fruits were had only with dinner. Also, and so ... read more
A walk in the clouds 11 y
I'm floating, I'm floating
Euphoria is fun and I find it comforting that I still feel gleeful post-cleanse. So, what did I gain from the experience? Oh, so much, really. Iíve quit coffee, I sleep better, Iíve reset my relationship with food (a minor tweaking), my attitude is laid back but focused and so-called problems really donít phase me like before.
Ate pretty much what I ate yesterday. Egg yolks with banana and avocado for breakfast, snacks throughout the day of banana, apple, raisin and brazil nuts alternated with cukes, tomatoes, avocados, scallions, olive oil, lemon juice and jalapenos, then a scrumptious ... read more
Raw all day, raw all night 11 y
So, today was my first day of eating after my cleanse. I actually ended up breaking the fast yesterday with some oj and broth and decided I was ok with eating again. I am still peaceful and positive but more focused than of late. Silly and teasing, realising how lucky I am to have the life that I live.
Breakfast was a couple of organic raw yolks with some banana and avo. The rest of the day I went back and forth between the following:
1) Cut up fruit salad with banana, raisins, apple, a few raw Brazil nuts, and a little whoosh of unsweetened shredded coconut
2) Cut up salad with c ... read more
I am done 11 y
Day 12 Master Cleanse. This is it
Took a wonderful hike yesterday at a nature conservancy under blue cloudless skies with J. Soft playful breezes wafting scents of spring, everywhere I looked I saw green, green, green, with spots of wildflowers (poppy, what looked like lupine). Breathtaking!
The conservancy had a Red Tail hawk and an owl that they had taken under their (wait for it)...wing. The female hawk was gorgeous, proud and sad at the same time. She had fallen out of her nest as a young bird and someone with good intentions had brought her there. They had no choice but to keep her even as an adult as her survival ... read more
Struggling with hunger 11 y
Day 10 MC
Not so sure if itís hunger or just that I was unable to drink much of my lemonade drink today (bottle left in car, car got hot, didnít want to drink ĒplasticĒ). Had a bit of weird dizziness but itís passed now. Making up for it now with a tall cool one.
My sense of smell has become even more enhanced, not that I needed that these last few days on the cleanse. I smell food everywhere I go. At Whole Foods, walking around, at the office today. All of which elicits a visceral reaction of tummy growling. Clarity and feeling laid back are at an all time high and I feel happy and ... read more
Breezing through 11 y
MC Day 8
Day 8 MC
I actually posted a long post last night that I had fun writing and pressed the ĒsubmitĒ button and *POOF* it was gone. Off to some parallel fasting universe somewhere. Couldnít get it together to re-post, so here I am a day later.
Yesterday was a cinch, today more so. Had a business lunch today (sans food) but everyone with whom I lunched was so cool about my fasting with questions and support. YAY! First time I have been directly with people who are eating. It was fine, really. Nothing looked good (rib eye with fries for one, Angus burger with tomatoes for the other). In f ... read more
I was born with a gift of laughter 11 y
and a sense that the world was mad.
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With apologies to Raphael Sabatini and his epic, Scaramouche...
Day 6 on the Master Cleanse and a good thing indeed that I was born with the gift of laughter. Mood up, appetite down. Warm as toast all day (I am truly amazed how very little I have been cold this time around. Usually I am shivering and wearing hats in my house etc). Lots of metaphoric fires to be put out in the work arena and yet I am so amazingly laid back that there wasnít even one moment of tension. Would that I could bottle this feeling for after the cleanse so I could be this way always.
So, J decided that he is g ... read more