Hi Dear Lauray,

I'm happy to see you back on Curezone expressing yourself. Your honesty is very impressive although we both know that some can't handle it.

It is painful for me to see you in so much pain, hurt and abuse. I have a burden for you and I fell asleep praying for you the other night. I see by one of your blog posts that you have turned to prayer. I also believe in the power of prayer. I know that the power of it is much magnified when fasting is added to it.

I am going to give you a link to a video that I think may help you. I realize that a lot of people are cursing you which is adding to your problems. I see you are also cursing yourself which is also making your problems worse. This video tells how people turned their situations around by blessing instead of cursing. There is more power in our words that we realize.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2335TH666l8


Again, I feel for you. I was also rejected by the water fasting forum back in 2008. It was also very painful for me. Many of them were totally blind to my situation. I have received great benefits from fasting. This includes health benefits and spiritual benefits. I know not to look to them for support. Why would I want the blind to lead me? Sometimes I do read it for fasting information as there is some good information in there. I even post in the forum now and then, but I can't ever imagine going in there looking for them to support me. The support is just not there for me. I also do short fasts and about a year ago I made it just hours short of the ten day mark on a water-only fast. That was a breakthrough for me.

Having said all of this, I want you to know that I am really not religious. I don't even go to church, but I do have a strong belief in God. I believe that Jesus is the only way and that true deliverance can only be achieved by the power of His blood sacrificed for us and in His name. I know there is a lot of power in the name of Jesus and in His shed blood.

I know a lot of ministers and people (Christians and so-called Christians) have given Jesus a bad name. That is one of the reasons I turned from it when I was young and became an agnostic. Several years later, after living for the devil for years, His mercy drew me back and revealed to me that Jesus is for real and the Bible is true. I decided that I am not going to lose my soul over other people's Christian ignorance and abuse. They twist the scriptures to serve their own purposes. Many of them aren't even true themselves. I started seeking God on my own. He has met me. I fellowship with Christian friends at this point when I have time, but I do not go to church. Maybe some day when I am strong enough the Lord will lead me back into a church. I am not there yet.

I hope you listen to the video. I hope it blesses you. I want nothing but the best for you.

Love,
Rainy