Thank you, I appreciate your support a lot. The food thing has been a continual struggle. It almost seems like a catch-22 in that thought supression does not work. This is both in line with current research and LOA way of thinking. Sadly, I can't make myself not think about it. I'm attempting to get habits of thinking about other things instead but yeah, it feels like a tightrope to walk and get correctly from semi-obsessive thinking to releasing that thinking without trying to force it to stop. Relaxing seems to let me eat more food! Not so good.

Yeah, maybe I should look more closely at sugars. It's true that I've always had a crazy sweet tooth. I feel that I've made great progress in that instead of ice cream, I eat Sorbet (fruit which has sugar, I know) or instead of candybars I eat Raw food bars which do include a natural sweetener. I love agave! (predictable) This is most of the time. And I eat veggies far more than I used to. So there's great progress in my diet that I've maintained for months and I'm comfortable with because I like the healthy treats. Before that, my sugar sweet tooth would cause crazy cravings. Now it's not always intense cravings (so progress?) but still a habit or constant underlying thought of "what is there to eat"... not all the time but in times of quasi-idleness like at work or at home. If I was really intensely into some activity, I wouldn't have a second thought about food for a good while so it really seems mental.

It would seem I have some mental habits to break. I do know the tricks, and I can lose weight if I force myself to be very restrictive for a while. I can't seem to do that with a more relaxed philosophy of moderation - well yet, anyway. I hope that this process will help me reprogram my mind. One thing that may affect it is my husband being away for 8 months. 2 months to go. Sometimes a lot of the eating happens at home. I'll write an entry in a min - I'm tackling this issue next to try and fix things.

Anyway, I don't know why food issues can be so stubborn for some women. I totally empathize with women who have more trouble with food than I since I have a taste of what it is like. I want to be one of those people that deep down doesn't care if I eat the rest of a piece of cheesecake or of anything. Anyway, so the work continues. 100 days, still going. Thank you again for your support!