Ooh all kinds of things, here isn't there?! I'm not much of a one for drugs, but I have a book called 'Breaking Open the Head' by Daniel Pinchbeck, a journalist who went to South America and did all kind of healing/shamanic types of hallucinogens. Your dreaming/vision reminded my of some stuff in it in which the funguses/peyotes or whathaveyou each bring on a different sort of trip, but each trip contains visions and guidance relating to healing and your own condition. Your visions definitely seem healing related. I wonder if a shaman could help you decode them? Trouble is, how do you find one? I'm sounding like I have really a tenuous grip on reality, sorry! I've 'allowed email' on this post - if you'd like me to send you the book email me off the post and I'll send it: I've read it and I'm a big believer in passing things on.

I'm currently doing three weeks of no wheat or only raw dairy, mostly raw with 2 P&B shakes per day. I have parasite herbs coming by post and will start them as soon as they arrive. Then I plan a liver flush over the BH weekend, and then I'll take stock of the month and see where I want to go from there. We have a good colonics spa here, but it's very expensive! And I start a new job in early September, so I feel I'd better get a measure of that before I add a cleanse to the routine: might be too much all at once. I'm considering going to Koh Samui for the whole 10-day fast and colonics cleanse in the sunshine in the winter. I started Ashtanga yoga at the beginning of the year and that is fantastic: really beneficial for body mind and spirit but don't think it's a bit of stretching and relaxation: it's really dynamic! I can recommend it and I think you have some good teachers in Brighton.

Hope you stay calm and relaxed and don't have any scary visions again. Or at least don't be scared: i'm sure it's all healing and vital! All the best - happy wednesday. Alix