I sure hope you feel better. You remind me of myself right before I met my fiance. I was crying and whining that I'd never meet someone because dating is HELL in New York. I remember meeting my fiance for the first time. He was NOT the aryan nordic ideal but more he was NOT a metrosexual either. I rather date an ugly man who knows he's a man than a spineless loser. My fiance isn't ugly but he's TALL and he's got that classic Russian powerlifter look. No trendy girl I know would ever give him the time of day but he's a dream come true for me. The thing with looks is understandable. However, they may be looking at YOU the same way. It's a double edged sword.

I thought keeping a healthy lifestyle would be a big problem with him but the exact opposite is true. You sound like you're venting and I would too. It sucks ass to be single. I've been there. I had to walk away from my resentment about better looking females, guys chasing after blondes, guys chasing after this and that,etc. and decide that I'm NOT going to keep running after a man. THAT is what got me into trouble in the first place.

It may not be as bad as you think. Sit back and think about what you really want.