- not feeling so good. by athina
18 y
3,138 6 Messages Shown
Blog: * in pursuit of perfection *
Don't quite understand why I don't feel well today.
Last night, after a hard day working i call a friend to go for dinner. I ordered a salad with greens and grilled beef (no more than 3-4 ounces) with a pint of beer. Which was then followed by another pint.
By 4 am, I was unable to sleep because of bad gas, stomach pains and nausea. The nausea was making me feel so achy, that I just shoved my fingers down my throat and threw up whatever was left in my stomach so I could sleep.
Woke up this morning with blochiness all over my face, a sore stomach and tons of guilt. The guilt was not cause so much by my little beer binge, but by the fact that I forced myself to throw up. As a recovering bulimic, it brought back all the old feelings I used to get. I set my mind straight though and convinced myself that I did it just to relieve myself of the nausea.
It's now late in the afternoon and I still don't feel good :-(
My nose is running, I have low energy. Didn't really do a bowel movement today. Just feel achy and sluggish. I'm also noticing a cold sore developing on the edge of my mouth - something that's told me over the years that my immune system is being overworked. I also feel some scratchiness in my throat. I need a hug!
Anyways, back to my day. While running errands this morning, I passed the health food store. Decided to buy a bottle of Grade B Maple Syrup. The answer to all this I think would be a couple stacks of buttermilk pancakes with extra butter, sausage and bacon.
Just kidding. I'm actually going to Master Cleanse tommorrow, just to clear all the junk outta my gut that I think is making me feel bad, and give my digestive system a break. I can't really explain why I had that episode of nausea last night. Is this connected to the 'Doritos & Beer' episode? Could it be that I'm allergic to beer? How can that possibly be?
I've been thinking about this for a few hours, and looking back, I've realised that I always had a bit of a runny nose problem, and lately, since I stopped drinking beer on the daily, the runny nose comes back each time I do. Could it be that I'm allergic to the yeast in beer? Maybe that's why I continue to be overweight, despite a pretty healthy diet. The yeast in the beer is probably creating mucous, which in turn is evidenced by my runny nose. How's that for a conclusion?
Excuse me, while I go google all of this. In the meantime, it's the 1-day Master Cleanser for me tommorrow. Picked some lemons off a tree near my house, and got some Senna tea as well.
Funny thing about the beer. Who would've known?
I'm still sort of in shock. Giving up beer would be like giving up on the hot boyfriend with no personality. It's a love-hate relationship for me. Like the boyfriend, it's just so good when we're together but a real headache the morning after!!!
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- no one is perfect by ren
18 y
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| It concerns me that your blog mentions perfection and that you are a recovering bulimic. You need to get back to recovery. I wish you well. You sound like you're in trouble. Please don't do the Master Cleanse as a motivation to purge anything out. That's also bulimia. If you are going to do the Master Cleanse, do it for the ten days and do it right.
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- Re: no one is perfect by athina
18 y
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Hey there...
I stopped purging years ago, excepting a few times here and there over the past five years (the number of times could probably be counted on my right hand).
As for the Master Cleanse, I'm not doing the fast per se - just a day of fluids to clean out my digestive system. Instead of water I chose the lemonade because the lemons strengthen the liver and the maple syrup is a better alternative to sugar. I'd rather do juicing, but don't have a juicer, nor the economic means to buy one.
You made some good points. While perfection is not attainable, it's something worth striving for. Thanks for your kind message.
:-)
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athina
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- Re: no one is perfect by ren
18 y
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| Okay as long as you are self aware of your own limits. Molasses will provide more minerals than maple syrup and costs less if you are strapped for cash as I am. I would recommend the master cleanse forum here and also http://www.therawfoodsite.com Good luck. Let me know when you are beginning your fast and I will fast with you. I need a little cleaning out myself. I am also a recovering bulimic, free since June 2006.
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- Hug for YOU!!! by yourenchantedgardener
18 y
1,588
11:39 AM
November 14, 06
Looks like you have been
making a lot of progress
and know lots of good things to do.
Even as beer goes, there are always
better beers with less chemical stuff in them.
Orgnanic and local beers are becoming available.
Of course, there is the economic thing.
Looks like your Soul is fighting with the
physical side of you and old patterns.
Best to keep writing it out,
self accepting,
and letting the good win out naturally.
Can't push to hard I find.
Heard a great talk about that from
Alex Tiberi, an acupuncture master teacher
a few weeks ago.
Let it all happen organically.
Loving all the parts.
Szekely, the Essene Renaissance 20th Century
Pioneer, said, "Siempre Mejor!" Always better.
Just a little organic step at a time.
Much love to you,
Leslie
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- Re: Hug for YOU!!! by athina
18 y
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i'll see that hug, and raise you a million! thanks for such a great message, i've read it 10 times over the past few hours!
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athina
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