- Hmmm... Size 10 didn't actually look that great! by annaconda
18 y
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Blog: Wedding Diet
Wedding shower was great, trip to Pittsburgh was great. However...
Wow. I think I've been in some serious denial for a little while now. I wore my size 10 jeans, thinking I was the shit. I've been watching my progress and I think I look good, standing in front of the mirror.
However, seeing my shower pictures was an extremely rude awakening for me. I look OK, but I look pretty much like what I thought I looked like before I started losing weight (wow, imagine what I ACTUALLY looked like 20 pounds ago.)
I still look BIG. Bigger than I have any intention of looking for my wedding. So I'm attacking what seems to be the root of all evil - dinner. I just can't eat with my fiance at night any more. I think there's another 20 pounds I want to lose before the wedding, and I'm not sure at all that I can do it.
I think my daytime eating is good - some fruits and veggies and some low-fat low-calorie yogurt and nuts.
It's when I get home that I can't seem to stop snacking and eating.
I don't want to juice fast for the next 40 days till the wedding - I just can't deal. But I can do juice only for dinner and probably cut out 1/2 my daily calories.
I am also planning on doing an 11 day juice fast starting 7/7, to drop a final 5-6 pounds, hopefully.
But until then, I need to eat small meals during the day (yogurt, fruit, yogurt, powerbar) then run 4 miles or workout at the gym, then have carrot ginger juice for dinner.
If I could juice fast, plan the wedding and work and work out at the same time, I would, but there's no freaking way I can keep that up for the next month. So I'm doing a sort of dinner fast.
Shit. I'm kind of upset. I guess I don't really care, there's no way I'll be 155 for the wedding. There's just no way, and I need to deal with that. I'm at 185 (approx) at the moment and I have no intention of getting back on a scale before the wedding. There's just nothing I can do about it.
If I could get into the 160s I know I would be looking totally fine, but I'm not sure it's possible. The weight is not coming off quickly, and it's because I've been trying to balance having a relatively normal non-stressed out life with losing weight continuously - I've done the slow and steady thing and it's worked, but there's so much left to go and such a short period of time...
shit.
Well I'll just have to deal.
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- it doesn't matter by ren
18 y
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| I was thinking all that stuff right up to the last minute. When you see yourself in the mirror after, you'll forget all that stuff. You'll see! I'll be home in about two weeks with massive amounts of pictures.
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