- Things are going... by annaconda
18 y
2,321 3 Messages Shown
Blog: Wedding Diet
My bridesmaids are not being nice. Feel bad for me. FEEL BAD FOR ME!!!
Just kidding.
But seriously, my future sister-in-law, who was my friend/roommate before I even met her brother, she's really acting hateful towards me. I don't know what's going on. She is very misguided, she has a pattern of running away from things, and she ran away from being fired from her job in NYC to New Orleans, to volunteer for Katrina. She did some good work, she screwed around and lived in a hostel for a while, and got in a large amount of debt. Her parents have bailed her out, and she's back in VT with all of us, living at her parents' place.
The girl has a history of volatility and toughness. She has come back with horrible acne and so much anger at herself (for what? I think she did a great thing, but she thinks she failed). She has started to cause wedding planning problems (like deciding she's missing the bachelorette party that she's supposed to be planning). She also says mean things about me to her brother, who got in a yelling match with her about it yesterday while he was at work.
He came to my office, took me out to dinner, then said "you have to work on this for me." I said I've reached out to her - I have nothing but compassion for her, I've told her I love her a million times. She says I care nothing for her except in terms of the wedding.
Is it fair for a maid of honor to blow into town and start accusing me of PLANNING MY WEDDING?? For F*ck's sake, it's 2.5 months away. I wanted her to help but if she weren't about to be my sister in law, she'd be out of the bridal party.
I practically had to BEG her to understand that I loved her yesterday on the phone. I was practically on my knees. She says she "doesn't feel the love." I have no idea what she's talking about. I am so sick and tired of kissing her ass. I really am. I'm going to have a compassionate heart and try to be non-defensive and ass-kissing to try to get past this. But after the wedding? See you later.
She bailed on the bachelorette party. She's supposed to be my maid of honor. She's being MEAN. mean mean mean mean mean mean mean. I can't believe it.
Anyway, I'm doing OK, I'm still in some pain from that run last week. But I'm going to do it again Thursday night, before i hang outwith my future sister in law. I'm hoping it will give me strength and calm and compassion.
Anyone who's reading this, please send me a prayer for a big open compassionate heart, that can over look the pain I'm feeling.
I worked out hard Monday, took yesterday off. Today I'm in for a long, low-intensity cardio session, tanning, etc. I'll tan tomorrow too. I'm not making much tan progress, by the way, cause I'm taking it really slowly. It's the best thing for my skin.
Eating - I've been pretty good, juiced yesterday morning. We had 2 drinks each out at dinner last night, but I haven't been drinking at home, which is probably good enough. If I can get through the next few months having a casual drink out at a bar or restaurant, that's fine. Just no wine/beer/booze in the house.
We don't go overboard whatsoever, by the way, it's just very regular to have a glass of wine (or 2) with dinner at my house. So cutting that out is going well. All those extra calories.
How am I doing? My clothes from last fall are positively swimming on me. I haven't tried on the new pair of size 10 jeans I bought yet. Soon. After another long run maybe I'll try them.
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annaconda
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- oh lordy... by ren
18 y
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| Kick her ass to the curb at least in your mind. This is suppoed to be YOUR time not her drama time. That sucks ass that your maid of honor skips out on one of HER duties. You have my sympathies.
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ren
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- Hehehehehe -sorry! by jelequa
18 y
1,514
Monkey mind parade
The story is
Those %¤#&!§-s
they're uncooperative
I love them
But, shit, they won't
DO what I want
(They may not be qualified
based on past history
description)
It might be
mad
to expect any different
behavior than that of the past?
But hers's what you
control
(and me too)
is your behavior
now
I feel for you, but
I am putting on a 3 day event
for 300 and
I sound just like
YOU
Different stuff but same
sound
And that's how you and I
give our power away
Honey dumpling size
10 hot chick in her new
jeans
What is it we have to be THANK
Full for so we can be Full
of Love, Gratitiude
instead of anger
and food..
Shoving down emotions and disappointment
and expectations..
I love you and
it's not gonna do any good
to try and change the spots on
that kitty
Figure what you can do
to cut your loses
and find the help you need...
You are powerful stay in your power
Dear God
Annaconda feel
the belessed gratitude of
her wonderful opportunities
and achievements in life
Amen
And so it is
The truth of beautiful Annaconda!
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jelequa
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