- I went to my psychiatrist today by luckyhope
10 y
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Blog: Luckyhopes journey out
I went to my psychiatrist today and everything went well. The nurse there was really close to me. And there were other people there but no one reacted. They all acted perfectly normal.
There was a little boy there. He was around 12 yrs old. He was in the waiting room with me and did nothing. He was just in there playing his video games.
I was so surprised to get the response that I got because I was sure that I smelled. But when I went to the psychiatrist people didn't treat me as if I smelled.
It gave me hope. It made me feel like I can do this. I was so worried before I went that someone would do something, react in some way. But no one did. Not a single nose rub, cough, sneeze, comment. Nothing...
Hopefully this medicine will kick in and work for me before August because my mom and the kids are going to Disney World then. I'll be alone in the house with my dad and I know I will be scared if the meds aren't working to full capacity.
I'm still scared of the devil. It doesn't seem to be getting better. Once the voices started changing and telling me that they were all me and I was the devil I thought things would change fast. But they haven't.
I still think about the devil all the time and worry about him. It's taking its toll on me. I stress that more than anything else because it makes me feel unsafe. If that could go away I would be so happy.
I try to change my thinking but it just doesn't work. This is so ingrained in my mind I can't stop thinking about it. I hope it goes away soon because I'm losing hope and strength to deal with it.
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- Re: I went to my psychiatrist today by kerminator
10 y
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You place value upon everything in your life. You alone are the one who esteems what is most important to you!
What are the values that you place upon the things in your life?
Once I was with a friend who started telling me all about the things another person was saying about me.... But I stopped him and said I did not want to hear it!
My friend was astonished and said " Why doesn't it bother you? "
- then I told " Because I do not value his opinion of me the way that you do; it is all about what you value most! " I value the Word of God most in my life!
The reason you begin to lose the revelation, blessings and benefit from the word that God has spoke; is that you have placed your values upon many other things...
So if and when you value so many other things before God; you start to lose the gifts in your life. It is not because God changed His attitude toward you; rather it is because you quit. You have allowed other things become more important and occupy the place of greatest importance in your life which was meant for God alone!
If you have God in your heart; then you can cast the devil out of your life in the name of Jesus - because Satan has not authority in your life except what you give him... Repent and pray for deliverance from evil and accept the Lord Jesus into your life!
Amen!
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- Re: I went to my psychiatrist today by luckyhope
10 y
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| I don't think you will ever understand how much what you wrote meant to me. I've been placing things before god. I've been forgetting all the revelation that the lord has given me. Before this all started. I need to rely on my relationship with the lord. And your message reminded me of that. I place so many things before him. When he is the only one I serve. He is the place where I belong. He is my everything. You've given me so many words of wisdom. That speak to my situation. I can't thank you enough.
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