- Day 12 by ausjulie
16 y
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Blog: journal of my 30 day juice fast
well i spoke too soon i said yesterday that i was finding the fast easy well today has been by far the most difficult day i have had thus far. yes its friday my old arch nemesis! i just love our typical friday routine a really nice meal a few beers maybe a really great red and a movie with the family. it just fits so well with all of us and i love it. end of the week start of the weekend absolutely my favourite night of the week. the only night that tops it is a friday night before a long weekend or holidays! anyway i went to the supermarket with my daughter to get some food for the kids and it was really really hard but i did come out with loads of fruit and bottles of water. instead of beer and wine and ingredients for chicken florentine...i have no idea what is up with that i have never even eaten it in my life but for some reason i want it now!!!!! anyway i am going to make it thru.
these are the thougths that pass thru my brain in no specific order:
* im over it done with it
* i really want to succeed cant give in
* oh my gosh i have sooo much weight to go
* you can do it its only one month out of the year there is always going to be another friday around the corner
* i am so lucky i have wonderful husband kids life so what if im 10 pounds overweight jsut eat
* i really want that clean colon
* i dont want to crave bad foods
* i need to prove i can do this
* gosh i want a beer
so as you can see its a constant battle. and ultimately the only thing that wins is i know how i will feel tomorrow mornign if i quit. i will feel rotten and fat and unheatly adn like a quitter. however if i stick with it i will wake up feeling great successful and inspired to go on. so you see its not really that hard a choice but it is if you know what i mean. its all about instant gratification. i read about this along time ago and it made so much sense to me. its all about whether you are the type of person who needs to see results straight away or whether your willing to work for your rewards. do you want instant gratification or delayed. i think im a bit of both. but right now i really am trying to look work at my gratification and the rewards will be bigger.
i need to start foucusing more on the positive about this fast. stop beign so negative adn just do it. i guess also my problem was i weighed myself today and i gained weight. gosh i hate that when fasting it really really really sucks. but the plan is to stick with it this weekend and get to monday. see how my weight and mood is doing and decide from there. i will be happy with 15 days. i would be happier with 21 or 28 or 30 but 15 will be ok too.
oh and another interestign thing this whole wanting to quit and eat happened again in the afternoon. there must be something in that! tomorrow i will concerntrate on juicing in the afternoon to ward off the plumit!
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- Re: Day 12 by trulioness
16 y
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I am proud that you kept going! plus I told you what to do to "Feel better!" :-) You have always talked about how you love Fridays... but wouldn't you LOVE to loose those 10 pounds even more!!!
We all think the same thoughts you do. I know I have given myself a reason to quit everyday but I want to look in the mirror and have some self-respect! Right now that is important to me. You have done this before and you can do it again but don't beat yourself up. I have been thinking about cheesesteak hoagies and I don't even eat beef!
It seems that you have plenty of reasons to keep going...so try focusing on those.
I look forward to your next update.
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trulioness
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