Shattered Heart. Need advice

After a failed marriage and going through a lot in life. I longed for a second chance. A second chance at life and a second chance for love. It’s tough being alone in this world without being loved. That’s where my story begins……..
I came to this beautiful country to study and to start a new life. Few months down the line, I met the most gorgeous woman. She was 41 with 3 teenage kids and me 28 with a one year old that I unfortunately do not have the privilege of seeing or even getting news about from my ex wife. Age was just a number. The love we had just out of this world. We could stare at each other and get lost for hours. Her presence soo soothing that a look at her can take all my worries away…….
She was not divorced. Was in the marriage for the kids. Had fallen out of love long back. Her husband who is a Christian pastor had made her go through 2 abortions long back and also has been caught cheating on her twice during their days. Due to a few visa matters, she had to go back home to sort things out and also to get a divorce as he already knew about us. Her husband forced himself on her and tried his best to get back with her. She returned and even though it pierced my heart with pain that she had sex with him, I forgave and forgot. Some might say that it’s a sin to be with me while being married but what are we to do if you are out of love and don’t want to be with the man? What if he is not giving a divorce?? Is it still a sin????
Few month later she had to go back to our home country again since the husband blocked all her money and she had no funds to continue staying here. We tried our best to acquire the amount but failed. This time around, her husband literally locked her up and forced her to stay back. She was beaten to pulp every time she either spoke of me or got caught speaking to me. Her whole family supported the husband as they were strong Catholics and believed it to be a sin to divorce. He forcefully had sex with her on various occasions and even used verses from the bible to lay with her. Apparently according to the bible, the wife has to satisfy her husband in every way. I do understand that its fine when in love. But is it the same if you don’t want him???? Do you have to be with him without feeling???? Anyhow, I never forgot her. I never could be with anyone else. I loved her with all my heart and I still do. A year later, she ended up back to where I am. She had somehow lied that she was over me and come back. Our feelings and love flowed as soon as we set eyes on each other. We got back! I got my baby back!!
Her family back home kept calling and threatening to kill me and that they would somehow get me back to my home country. Months passed and life was great. The only problem that would arise is that the children who are no 15, 19 and 21 (all boys) will not accept me. I kept assuring her that things will be ok. That someday they would understand. That she is the mom and that they will never hate her or let her go. One morning I wake up and find everything gone. My baby has packed up and left me. Shattered and broken, I looked for her everywhere. She had gone far to a friend’s house in the middle of the night. She had left as she was scared that her children will not come here to her. We met after that and went to a farm to think things out. I told her that I’ll let her go if she thinks that’s the best thing to do for the children I also explained that they are all boys and in a few years that they would find their own women and go away from home. That they in a few months or years will realise how much in love we are and how happy she is with me. She still doesn’t believe that they will come around has left me for good. We meet everyone in a while. Still in love but she doesn’t want to be with me because she is afraid the kids won’t like it. I’m broken and shattered. Can’t eat or sleep properly. Missing her like crazy. Do you think she has made the right decision>???? If she goes back, she will be forced to live with her husband. Do you think it’s worth the risk????
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