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End of day
sanity is action
Date: 2/15/2010 10:41:59 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 1242 times Did well.
Up early.
Prayed.
Exercised.
Black coffee.
Listed 10 affirmations - broke my glasses. People does not have an 'i'. This I know.
Read daily readings/journal.
Baked a dozen cookies for meeting tonight.
Sat down and ate 3 scrambled eggs.
*Up at 5am.
Problems this morning:
No make up
Late for work
Alterction with man in parking lot trying to tell me what to do - just not a good idea to call me a bitch as I walk away from being told what to do - Jeezum. I was trying to be nice. I then got asked out when I held him accountable for being such an arrogant *ss. Asked - me - out. Good God.
Ex #1 called. Funny - I felt ousted from the club this weekend by being blown off. Informs me he's in trouble - DUI. Oh man. This makes #4 in his lifetime. Oh man. My boy - where is he now? What does he see? I am sad for him. Already has a storm brewing finacially. Blows me off Friday for sober movie, runs to ex-girlfriend who drinks - it's not enough that the law was involved during their last night together on New Year's Eve, he's got to 'make it right' for her birthday. Yup, that's making it right.
We are on the Loser Express and it's going nowhere fast. Man oh man.
I am insane, I have chosen to live with insane people for the past 30 years, and now I need to untie the knots I've twisted myself in. As alcoholics we twist our minds into such an obsession for destructive drinking, destructive thinking, and basic self-destruction.
Okay. Now. Back. On. Track.
Did teeth/face thing already. Next.
Nightly inventory.
Prayer.
Sleep.
Read quick blurb on 'something' happy.
Snag: 11:45pm and I'm still here typing. Took too long on phone w/Ex#1 - drama rama.
Up tomorrow @6:30, not 5.
Not bad for day 1. Sanity is an action. Success is a decision. Offer a hand but don't hand over my life.
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