Date:   12/10/2006 10:41:19 PM ( 18 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=789502

I have been plagued all my life with the feeling that there is something fundamentally wrong with me. I have done much work on myself including workshops, healing circles, The Work, Avatar, meditation, theta, reiki, pyschic surgery, exorcism, soul retrieval and sweatlodges. Oh and One Brain therapy and Psych-K. Some I studied at length, some I touched upon. My question is..isnt this enough to rid the issue of self-defeating behaviors? I just got this great job and have twice in the last month had too much to drink and then drove a car. 1st time resulted in both left tire rims getting bent, the last time resulting in a night's stay in jail - PLUS getting slammed with "drug" charges for one lousy xanex pill. It's like when things get going good, the inner saboteur gets food and comes out to rule enough to f*ck up my life and then goes back into hiding for awhile. In some sessions I've done, there have been interferences--I've asked the facilitator(s) and got a "yes" to interference from other forces. I am just wondering: could it be that I am being used for "food"? Cuz I've done a LOT of work on undoing beliefs and am starting to believe there are forces more powerful than my beliefs. thoughts? remedies? I mean it could be a simple solution like diet or a parasite cleanse (can parasites make a person want to commit suicide?) Thanks.
 

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