Date:   9/3/2006 6:55:48 PM ( 18 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=729281

It truly is a one day at a time, positive thinking program I have myself on. I KNOW if I have alcohol around me I'll drink it. Plus I feel too good on the teas and water and lemon I've been drinking. I'm not in bars or around people that are drinking. And I have tons to look forward to in my near future. I want to approach it feeling good, and being the best I can be. I am darn lucky by the way, I am 46, that I do not look horrible for all the damage I've done. In fact when I went to AA they wouldn't believe I was one, so they ignored me basically. So I'm doing it myself and I do KNOW there's a higher power, and we are spiritual beings in physical bodies. Our true selves never needed anything. I get angry thinking I'm letting a beveridge have power over me. I am remembering how I was before I ever drank at all and trust it was 20 years of a drunken mess. So I'm positive today and it helps to read about others doing the same thing. I picture myself another week from now and how good I will feel and look with clear eyes. I picture how awful I will feel about myself if I let myself go back there. And today I'm not going to. That's how I'm doing it. And here it is a holiday when I really have no plans...a perfect excuse to do it but I'm not. Plus I was so undisciplined I reminded myself of a female Scarface. That's now how I wish to approach the rest of my life!

Jennifer
 

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