Date:   2/3/2005 6:40:16 PM ( 19 y ago)
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Hi Mary,
Concratulations to You first. It sounds like You "found" Youself.

I would like to ask You a question or two after my brief story.

Earlier in that year 1983 i stopped drinking after several years of alcohol drinking that culminated to very heavy last half a year. Ten years earlier i quit smoking for the reason that it made me sick especially those days that i used alcohol.
Drinking took a king size efford to stop, but i knew, there was no alternative, if i was to live any longer.
However my attitude was: if i can't stop it myself, i am beond help.
On the following year i had myself back to normal, overweight gone, alcohol gone, new partner, no worries.
Life, as we all know, throws many challenges to us, some of them too big to handle.
My worries were not all behind me.
Smoking i quit for life, when i did it. As i stopped drinking i never made that commitment. Pure reason for that was simply practical: i did not want to feel like "fish on dry land" in social caterings, even less to make my new partner feeling like that.
As the time rolled on, pressures in life increased and so did the drinking.
Totally new situation opened in my life: I felt like a painter who forgot, where the doorway is when painting a floor. I painted myself in the corner, nowhere to go.
Alcohol was (in my eyes) my savior, the releave valve for the pressure.
Because if i can't take the pressure, i will hurt not only myself but 3 other people.
I have no doubt, some friends would say i am an alcoholic.
I admitted that 1983 myself and consecuently stopped drinking.

Pressure in my life is disappearing these days, so is alcohol abuse.
At present i am too scared to stop drinking completely.
I cut alcohol drasticly half a year ago with terrifying result:
Two weeks in a hospital intensive care ward: suspected coronary artery blockage.
I was lucky this time, no surgery required, NOT YET!
(The whole story is much more compicated and ugly as far as doctors are concerned in that incident.)
Alcohol is a solvent that helps to keep my bloodvessels open.
I will need a lot of convincing to change my mind!

Question 1. When is a person an alcoholic? How would You draw the line?

Question 2. If i admit: "i am an alcoholic", do i deed to carry that "label" rest of my life?
(I notised You introduced Youself so in the opening sentence).

I wish You happy life ahead and be stong in You commitments.
One of the things in life is beatiful: Freedom of choice!

All the best

SF





 

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