Date:   1/23/2014 7:13:54 AM ( 10 y ago)
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I have given back in to alcohol addiction in the past year. it has relieved alot of symptoms for me and made my life livable again. (more below on that) Anyway the reason I'm posting this is that I am really not sure what to do right now. I'm scared. I feel like the fact I have become an alcoholic given my wide array of medical concerns that this flu will kill me. Appreciate any suggestions... Going to the hospital seems like that might kill me too after everything I've read about how horribly they treat alcoholics in ER.

anyway, yesterday I started coughing really bad and I feel like I have a bad flu. Wheezing/horrible cramps and severe insomnia. I could not sleep. I have now been up like 48 hours and no matter how tired I am my brain won't shut off. I was thinking about parasites and using L-Ornithine as I have done in the past but I don't know. Even that did not work. I have been taking drops of this immune defense tonic which consists of echinacea, astragalus, reishi, schisandra berry, prickly ash. I've also been making msm water and drinking it through the day. I am trying to drink TINY amounts of alcohol as I feel that a withdrawl could kill me if I go cold turkey and let this flu take over :/

when I first realized I couldn't sleep I went through the normal motions I take... taking a dosage of ionic magnesium, using an enema/suppository to make myself pass a stool and even taking a laxative to try to push out gunk inside me I feel might be keeping me up. In addition I took a 500mg ornithine capsule to hope it would let my brain shut down finally. Nothing worked this time :(

After spending the whole day trying to sleep and not being able to I realized I wasn't going to sleep, and got up and started moving around at about 6pm. Due to my potentially dangerous alcohol related complications I decided to drink a bit. I drank a kombucha (trace alcohol right?) and a redbridge gluten free beer... but I can not sleep still. i also forced myself to eat a little tomato soup and bread though I was not hungry at all. Cramps are killing me. Head aches agonizing. Wheezing and coughing continuously.

what suggestions would you guys give to help me try to fight this flu and simultaneously help my body not die from alcohol withdrawl? It is such a complicated situation. I don't know if my body will ever sleep again and surely that will finally kill me. heh. I don't know if I'll make it so I really appreciate any ideas. thanks.



Here is more history about my situation:


I have an extreme wide array of health ailments. from cysts in my joints (possibly cancer in bone marrow, I don't know), floaters in my eyes, severe headaches and nonstop gastro intestinal cramping/bloating/aches. I am probably far beyond healing. I spent most of my time the past few years trying to treat myself with cleansing parasite protocols and nothing really was helping at all. Then about 6 months ago, I came into alot of money. Figuring I don't have much time left anyways, I had come to give in to alcohol use/self-medication.

It cured everything for the most part. despite the sick hangover days and other expected problems, alcohol really let me just live my life and actually enjoy being alive again. The insomnia was gone. The constant unending cramps were gone. Everything seemed to be improved and I could actually like to be alive. I realize it is a lie, and I am in fact killing myself faster, but I already feel far beyond any hope so yeah. I don't drink a crazy amount daily, maybe 2-8 beers on average but not even every day. When I go out for a night on the town I drink far more, maybe up to 15 drinks, but regardless my conditions have become manageable compared to the hell I was in living sober. I can relate it to terminally ill patients who are given morphine to cope with the pain so they can at least have some relief. heh.

I'm really terrified right now and getting some of the withdrawl symptoms slightly. I decided that it is probably a good idea to give my body a LITTLE alcohol to keep the withdrawl symptoms in check so my body can focus on the flu, but it's really dangerous feeling and I'm beginning to completely lose it. I don't know which symptoms are the flu or which are withdrawls but if I can not figure out a way to get some rest, surely I will die. :( really scared, thanks for reading and any ideas.


 

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