not even close... you have no idea... If it were not for the light... that can not even look on my darkness... I would be grinding and gnashing my teeth. I simulate goodness at best... at worst...I am one of the most selfish people ever... I do good... only because God recalled me to heaven... in my NDE... because I was planning on hurting his children... millions of them... I was manifesting that burning desire,,, and it was way out of proportion of what was permitted... I was so mean that I would kill the world... all for nothing more than the words.. You are ordered to... Today... I do not trust any being calling himself God, nor will I answer to angels..., nor any semblance of light telling me to kill... I would spit in God's eye if he told me to kill my child like he supposedly told Abraham to do... I am not what you say... I know that doing acts of kindness beats loving anyone... so I would rather be known as a human being who never knew God and did one single action that benefited the spirit or soul of another than a person who loves everyone. Just so you know... I am not nor have I ever been good... in this world...