Re: Rudenski - also waiting

Knowing Death – yet, why the madness of life still affects you so?

I am here in this moment...trying to show the spiritually blind what is important to make it in the spiritual world.

I think its fine that you make yourself available to show the spiritually blind what is important to make it in the spiritual world. Its fine when they come to you to find this out. But when you go to them, then it is being aggressive, it can be considered an imposition, a trespass.

I am sure you have heard, You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink. When the horse is thirsty, it will find the water. You cannot make him drink the water by trying to pour it down his throat.

Everyone has the right to progress in the way they feel to progress through this life. If they want to cling to trivial things, if they want to remain blind and ignorant, who are you to come to them and tell them what they should be doing. You will try to take things away from them, things they hold dear. But to them it is their treasure. Who are you to say it does not have any worth?

I believe it is my job to free those who are spiritually blind or deaf so they can live in the spiritual world. Why the heck else would I have learned what it is like to see and hear spiritually?

Having a job is a work, work implies making effort. Perhaps, it needs to be more of a play. Playing requires no effort. Keeping it playful prevents it from becoming a serious affair.

Perhaps you are looking for more meaning in what happened to you than is necessary. Perhaps, it was an accident, a fortunate accident. And you were lucky to have it happen to you, and it gave you a small taste of what is possible for you…still yet possible for you. And perhaps the ego is there saying to be a messiah to others, the ego likes to claim such things, when it does so, it prevents further growth. The ego is a good troublemaker.

I would consider what you have gone through as a genuine experience. Experiences are of the dimension of time, the past, they come and go, the effects of an experience may remain long after the experience has gone. This is different than an ongoing experiencing, something that does not stop happening, it continues without ending. Enlightenment I have heard is such an unending experiencing, it never ends.

It is my understanding that satori is a similar type of experience to an NDE. Satori is a japneses term that means taste of enlightenment. There are supposedly three satories that occur before full blown Enlightenment is realized. The first is like it happens completely by accident. Like I said, it seems from what I've read it is similar to an NDE.

You have fallen into the river that will eventually take you to the ocean. Most people on standing on the banks of the river, they are not moving towards the ocean. At least you are fortunate, you are on the way, but there is still a ways to go. I can suggest that you be careful of getting too hung up on trying to pull others into the river with you. They will get their feet wet when they are ready. Keep floating in the river, don’t be so concerned with the others, when you have become the ocean, then they will come to you. You will not have to find such people, they will find you.

Peace -*- turiya