i have both anorexia and bulimia, and i have a team that i work with twice a week, sometimes three. i still feel lost and i struggle a lot. i am looking for extra support for the time i am alone which is most of the time, then i lose control, other binge eating or not eating at all. i feel like i am at a loss. i have been in-patient and gained weight but immediately lost the the weight i had gained. i know what to do, i just can not seem to be able to get a handle on things lately. i have reached a point where my weight is extremely low. i need to gain at least 15 pounds and my potassium is dangerously low. i do not want to die. i want to find a light at the end of the tunnel. i have been sick for 22 years. i really need support from somewhere. please anyone help me find a way to live.