Rudi,
Interesting about feeling a stranger in time
I know that feeling and it helps me connect
to that aspect in others especially when
they/I do not know otherwise how to bring it up.
I mean how often do you have the ability to
say what you just said?
so it's good to be able to connect with people on all levels
I am reminded that The Christ suffers many things so that he may understand
others suffering, (as must the disciples) so it seems only certain souls that can handle the burdens
will be tempered to this degree, those who cannot bear the burden will have it lifted by someone who can (all will eventually come along)so in this manner we need not worry for others and only do our own duty and do it daily.

I am sure at a point in time jesus felt this also
before he came into fullness and realized the connection
and the grand unifying theory that not only is he one with the father
but through him one may be all.

You know the nearer one gets and the more one holds belief,
one gains longer and longer periods of seeing through illusion
your experience thus far has without a doubt shown you the promise and outcome,
and motivation for faith along the way are the glimpses of seeing reality as it is.
Soon and very soon we will decide, when seeing the truth in this manner that we are ready (not desirous) but truly ready to abide or dwell in truth and the veil that prevents (for our own protection) will serve no more purpose

This poem was written very quickly in a momemnt of clarity as I viewed a picture of myself that was taken a few years ago. The picture shows me reaching out to a large mirrorred surface and as my own mirror image reflected back to me, I was able to view myself and others in my field along with my own past shaded & tinted perceptions that formulated the future and how I often swung my needle like a pendulum from past illusion to future illusion. The clarity allowed be to be and do No-thing and stop instead and rest in the middle. In that present moment was given the ability to die to the past thusly in the present becoming part of that unified field, no longer concerned with even the future. One need not worry for the future when fully in the present all is taken care of. This is the a true sabbath rest and Secret place of the most High and the refuge for his children.

Aye