That is a lot to handle, especially with your hubby so far away. I would encourage you too to keep looking for a church that you feel welcomed in so you can meet some new friends. It's hard when you don't have someone to share with or laugh with for some respite from the "heavier" issues. Visit
http://www.sermonsnacks.com
and request a prayer for you.

Please read this entirely, then go ahead and do it.

Place your hands in front of you while sitting down, as in a giving position. Close your eyes and see your hands as the scarred hands of Christ Himself. See someone somewhere in need,(this can be yourself. See a basket being held by Jesus' hands. See the needed item(s) (love, a hug, a house, a car, a child, whatever the need) in the basket. Approach the person in need, and hand them the basket of goodies. Tell the person that Jesus, God the Father and you yourself love that person, give them a hug, and be on your way to another person in need.

Depression can be treated in several ways, most with not so good side effects. This way at least can give you a way of working in the Spirit, to help yourself and others. God is a Spirit, and theise that want to worship Him must do so in Spirit and Truth. Open up your heart and give, and let God fill you back up with His infinite supply!

I will, dear. I really, really will.

May I make a suggestion? Please do not seek out a church by the criteria of what makes you "feel comfortable"! Please just go wherever the Holy Spirit TELLS YOU to go....in total obedience.

I mean, I don't want you to FEEL B A D ! I just want you to be where GOD wants you to be and sometimes the best growth for us is in a place we may or may not recognize as "comfortable". Most growth comes in the valleys, not the mountaintops, nice and spectacular as they are.

God bless you. :O)